There are times when even my condemnable rational mind sheds its iron hard outer shell and rolls in the mud and slop of what ifs, if onlys, and maybes. These are times when I open and flow creatively. They also tend to follow swiftly behind my lows. And they are joined by lack of sleep. I simply cannot sleep of late. I am up until wee hours of the morning, then I am awake hours before work, the amount of time in between spent in bed is perilously brief.
I muse on things. I imagine and flow, letting my addled mind travel to locales not often visited, and thoughts like these are the result. I see her, I want to go to her, touch her, kiss her, let her know I'll always be here. She knows these things, like an instinctual understanding, it is as if on some primal level we communicate and mix perfectly. I stop and I know, just KNOW how or why. I know what will happen next. I understand it all. I accept all, not asking or needing more.
I think my flow has drifted away from me. The smell is still with me. I sense myself adrift, I seek something, I search for it, grasp. There! Reaching!
And nothing. I flow on.
-JC
I muse on things. I imagine and flow, letting my addled mind travel to locales not often visited, and thoughts like these are the result. I see her, I want to go to her, touch her, kiss her, let her know I'll always be here. She knows these things, like an instinctual understanding, it is as if on some primal level we communicate and mix perfectly. I stop and I know, just KNOW how or why. I know what will happen next. I understand it all. I accept all, not asking or needing more.
I think my flow has drifted away from me. The smell is still with me. I sense myself adrift, I seek something, I search for it, grasp. There! Reaching!
And nothing. I flow on.
-JC
Is it any wonder we are struggling to sleep these days?
Hopefully school will be the positive you need. if you can enjoy that and everyday life again unlike in your previous job, then hopefully it will lay the groundwork for more good things to follow.