ironmog

Just got back from the college. And I'm officially signed up for classes. I'm a little bit excited about this. And now I'm antsy I have to wait until August to go. I haven't been in school in 8 years, wow but this is long overdue. I just wish my grandma was still around to see me finally going back to school. I'm totally doing this in her honor, I really should have been better at life before now.

And haven't been able to talk to Dani about stuff, I keep missing her by an hour here or there. She was up and gone an hour before I woke up, then she was here and gone again about an hour ago. I have the rest of the day off from work so I'd have plenty of time to talk to her but she just isn't here.

Something about this entire year seems utterly dynamic. I feel as if I've been stagnant and wallowing for the last 6 years, as if unable to process or come to terms with something. But now suddenly the whole force of the world has come barreling at me and slammed me back into motion. Like this is where I should have been years ago its just taken me this long to finally take that one step.

I'm scared by what might be coming, but also thrilled at the chance for change. Positive change hopefully.

-JC