Looking for a life of meaning...
mellon:
Start small. Do something meaningful today.
I am very depressed feeling most of the time. I feel no urge to get up anymore, I feel no joy in my day. I miss my last girlfriend and wish we could be together again...I am not interested in being with anyone else and therefore I don't want to lead them on with a purely physical relationship. There is no point. I want her...
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caterpillar_girl:
It's always good not to lead someone on..a though if anyone has read any of your blogs,there's no way they would have been expecting anything from you,other than friendship...I'm sure it's not a big deal.
Is it possible to fix things with your ex? I don't know your situation,so I don't know if that's a possibility or not. If so,then do what you have to do and get her back.
Good luck with your plan of action. Sounds like a very good idea. Much better than just being miserable.
Today is one year since my breakup with someone I loved very deeply..it still hurts.
Best wishes
Is it possible to fix things with your ex? I don't know your situation,so I don't know if that's a possibility or not. If so,then do what you have to do and get her back.
Good luck with your plan of action. Sounds like a very good idea. Much better than just being miserable.
Today is one year since my breakup with someone I loved very deeply..it still hurts.
Best wishes
mellon:
That is a crappy place to be. I remember once feeling like the place in my heart that could get enthusiastic about someone new was just burned out, and it took me a long time to get over it. I hope that it's reasonably quick for you.
Good luck with your job quest. Remember that any experience (with the possible exception of being a greeter at Walmart) is good experience...
Good luck with your job quest. Remember that any experience (with the possible exception of being a greeter at Walmart) is good experience...
Well I can't leave SG as it auto renewed...
I don't understand why so many people ignore my attempts to reach out, to just find some information. I mean professors from school will ignore emails, even after I ask them face to face if it is ok. I am in a group project and no one we have contacted has responded. Even the fucking...
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I don't understand why so many people ignore my attempts to reach out, to just find some information. I mean professors from school will ignore emails, even after I ask them face to face if it is ok. I am in a group project and no one we have contacted has responded. Even the fucking...
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mellon:
I'm sorry you're having such a crappy time. I wish there was something I could do to help.
You sound like you're imprisoned in your expectations of others. It's worth remembering that it's not that they hate you, or that they don't want to keep their commitments. It's that, like you, they live in the world that _is_, not the world that they wish for. They make promises they intend to keep, but can't. They get pissed off at what they think you meant to say, which wasn't what you intended. They are so focused on their own needs, and their own fear, that they don't have any space in their hearts and minds to have compassion for you.
The only way to turn this around is to give up on receiving compassion, and start giving it. I know this sounds trite, but it's the only thing I've ever tried in all my years that's increased my happiness at all. If you commit to this practice, you will start to see changes in others, but what will really amaze you will be the changes you see in yourself.
You sound like you're imprisoned in your expectations of others. It's worth remembering that it's not that they hate you, or that they don't want to keep their commitments. It's that, like you, they live in the world that _is_, not the world that they wish for. They make promises they intend to keep, but can't. They get pissed off at what they think you meant to say, which wasn't what you intended. They are so focused on their own needs, and their own fear, that they don't have any space in their hearts and minds to have compassion for you.
The only way to turn this around is to give up on receiving compassion, and start giving it. I know this sounds trite, but it's the only thing I've ever tried in all my years that's increased my happiness at all. If you commit to this practice, you will start to see changes in others, but what will really amaze you will be the changes you see in yourself.
caterpillar_girl:
sorry you're having a hard time 
outta here!
So a month ago the girlfriend and I split up. I have no interest in seeing anyone now. I have no interest in much of anything anymore. Maybe we can get it to work but she goes to school 125 miles away in St. Louis and I will not be able to move there anytime soon. The distance was killing it. She remains the most...
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caterpillar_girl:
I am sorry to hear that
Distance killed my last love,too..
Distance killed my last love,too..
Guess I scored a 97.69 % on my last accounting test! Eight weeks til graduation
I think back on events of the past year, it's as if I were in a dream, it all seems so distant and alien to me now. The first Act of my life is ending and Act two will be the greatest part of my life; I am still young and have a good thirty years before the decline sets in. I wonder if I...
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timid:
thank you... your probably right..... just dont understand the whole week.... and the i love yous... but....
For the first time in years, yesterday I felt human. I have taken time off from work to deal with my stress level and depression. It seems to be working; I do not anticipate going back. I have enough right now to make it to May when I graduate.
I am going on a bike ride in Alaska this summer. It will be the cliched...
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I am going on a bike ride in Alaska this summer. It will be the cliched...
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I wish I could play the banjo, I have two actually, one for clawhammer (like pete seeger, folk) and one for bluegrass. I want to play to accompany myself so i need to learn clawhammer but school is filling all my learnin' opportunities.
In unrelated news, I think junecarter may just be the hottest girl on SG...she certainly is the hottest canadian I know!
In unrelated news, I think junecarter may just be the hottest girl on SG...she certainly is the hottest canadian I know!
cadenza_:
I'm hearin ya. I have a mandolin taunting me daily in my living room that I can't even pretend to play. I think I even bought a book for it once....
oh well. We all have to have something to aspire to, right?
One day, we'll tackle our musical procrastinations and have a fabulous bluegrass band with our own rendition of "Koombya". Until then, enjoy your weekend
oh well. We all have to have something to aspire to, right?
One day, we'll tackle our musical procrastinations and have a fabulous bluegrass band with our own rendition of "Koombya". Until then, enjoy your weekendI miss my quasi-girlfriend of the past year, I wish she were here. I wish I hadn't damaged it so badly, hadn't gone off on some terrible new adventure. I hope it works this time.