blah....blood sugar dropping...
tminus three weeks and hours...
did the math yesterday...some 500 plus hours...
why is everyone getting sick? what the fuck! i barely keep myself healthy (too much red meat, not enough veggies) and i'm making it! fucking hippies! eat a cow! live a little! grr....
sorry can't think too much right now...my mind is else where....
going fishing tomorrow with my dad. it'll be good to go out with him again, although last time we did the w.t.c. fell down and we had to drive from denver to home. took two and a half days. find it funny that all i can think about now it getting back out to denver to the arms of a woman that i've never meet, yet she consumes my thoughts. i was joking when i said that i could bring a ring with me. well...i could...i have to work at the jewelry store on saturday and i think i might be able to "whip up" an engagment ring...got a diamond laying around somewhere...
okay enough joking around....watching people die on csi then hearing there bad jokes makes me smile.
i don't really know where my head's been lately. had so many thoughts. concerns surface and make me moody. talking to sam each day helps me smile but still....at the back of my mind live those evil little demons that gnaw on me. this is the reason my father doesn't sleep well...he thinks too much...my i don't sleep that much because of sam...so i crash when i finally lay down at night....no dreams...no nothing...just blessed darkness. is there a point to this?
so it seems like everyone is getting up and leaving...ah to have summer break again. makes me feel old thinking about all my friends up and leaving for summer...see ya next semester...makes me wonder who's actually gonna come back...just like the good old days back in college...
mmm....damn it where are my recipes!
tminus three weeks and hours...
did the math yesterday...some 500 plus hours...
why is everyone getting sick? what the fuck! i barely keep myself healthy (too much red meat, not enough veggies) and i'm making it! fucking hippies! eat a cow! live a little! grr....
sorry can't think too much right now...my mind is else where....
going fishing tomorrow with my dad. it'll be good to go out with him again, although last time we did the w.t.c. fell down and we had to drive from denver to home. took two and a half days. find it funny that all i can think about now it getting back out to denver to the arms of a woman that i've never meet, yet she consumes my thoughts. i was joking when i said that i could bring a ring with me. well...i could...i have to work at the jewelry store on saturday and i think i might be able to "whip up" an engagment ring...got a diamond laying around somewhere...
okay enough joking around....watching people die on csi then hearing there bad jokes makes me smile.
i don't really know where my head's been lately. had so many thoughts. concerns surface and make me moody. talking to sam each day helps me smile but still....at the back of my mind live those evil little demons that gnaw on me. this is the reason my father doesn't sleep well...he thinks too much...my i don't sleep that much because of sam...so i crash when i finally lay down at night....no dreams...no nothing...just blessed darkness. is there a point to this?
so it seems like everyone is getting up and leaving...ah to have summer break again. makes me feel old thinking about all my friends up and leaving for summer...see ya next semester...makes me wonder who's actually gonna come back...just like the good old days back in college...
mmm....damn it where are my recipes!
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where are ya babe? i miss you bunches...