there are two monkeys inside my head and their having a huge shitfight.so i was completely out of touch well in need of a connection to bring life back into my life...settled into 7 years of marriage and forgot everything fun..until now...ive waited and waited for something...i didnt know what ...but something... to wake me up...now i got it...i found my place like the child in the blind melon video...even in my 30s i still felt out of place...i cant keep still anymore...this year is my year...after may it all goes down..my folks want me looking human for their 50th anniversary...so ill compromise.. but after may..the neck and head/face tattoos...the piercings..the style....it all changes...ive been wearing grey all winter...the same grey sweatsuit..training for something...now i know.