I realized something I think might be important this morning as I was driving from work. It feels good to reclaim the things I once shared with people who are no longer a part of my life. You see sometimes I'll go someplace or someone else will want to go someplace or do something with me and as I think about it the thought of man, I haven't done that or been there since..... and it can sometimes become a sad thing, a reminiscent sort of thing. I think its important for my sanity to reclaim as much as I can as quickly as I can. To not shy away from anything because it brings up memories I'd rather not deal with. That's trying to bury the past, which I don't want. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed by my past so I have no reason to want to bury it. That's also letting them win in a way which is never something I like to let anyone do. Certainly not any of them.
So I'm setting a goal for myself to put an end to these things. If something comes up, even if its something I'm not really interested in doing again I am going to do it again. If for no other reason than to stop that thought of, "the last time..." leading me to thinking of these things.
That's my rap. Haha, silly Scott.
There's a few things I had been planning on staying away from or not doing but I now think its in my best interest to instead go through with them. I'm to stubborn to live with the idea of letting anyone take anything away from me like that. I think it will be good for me to embrace this aspect of life with my stubbornness and use it as a strength. And that's that mattress man.
To recap yesterday's events, I saw the Giants with Kim and it wasn't as fun as I had hoped. The team was mostly second string after the winning afternoon games players needing to be rested I guess. Cain got 8 strikeouts but also gave up a bunch of runs so that was a sort of mixed thing to decide whether it was good or bad. I guess overall I can say at least they won one of the two. And believe that they'll come through whenever they get to make up the third game, May 8th I think. I had fun though even if the game was lame. I'm looking forward to going to a few more games this year.
I got Rainer Maria tickets in the mail the other day. The more I listen to the new album the more excited I grow for that show to happen.
And I want to share that Judah of the Velvet Teen told me that I didn't need to thank him or the band for doing what they do and the proceeded to thank me for keeping track of what they do. Its nice to see someone with such talent to also possess some humility. I like my rock stars humble. It seems kinda weird to be bantering back and forth through emails with someone I think of as a rock star. Hmmmm.....
Anyway, I'm going to go stretch some canvas, and try to finish getting it primed today. That will leave me tomorrow since I have a rare free all day day to focus on creation. I think creation is something else I need right now. Creation and reclaiming the world around me. That's my new plan. And I like it way better than any I've had for a while.
So I'm setting a goal for myself to put an end to these things. If something comes up, even if its something I'm not really interested in doing again I am going to do it again. If for no other reason than to stop that thought of, "the last time..." leading me to thinking of these things.
That's my rap. Haha, silly Scott.
There's a few things I had been planning on staying away from or not doing but I now think its in my best interest to instead go through with them. I'm to stubborn to live with the idea of letting anyone take anything away from me like that. I think it will be good for me to embrace this aspect of life with my stubbornness and use it as a strength. And that's that mattress man.
To recap yesterday's events, I saw the Giants with Kim and it wasn't as fun as I had hoped. The team was mostly second string after the winning afternoon games players needing to be rested I guess. Cain got 8 strikeouts but also gave up a bunch of runs so that was a sort of mixed thing to decide whether it was good or bad. I guess overall I can say at least they won one of the two. And believe that they'll come through whenever they get to make up the third game, May 8th I think. I had fun though even if the game was lame. I'm looking forward to going to a few more games this year.
I got Rainer Maria tickets in the mail the other day. The more I listen to the new album the more excited I grow for that show to happen.
And I want to share that Judah of the Velvet Teen told me that I didn't need to thank him or the band for doing what they do and the proceeded to thank me for keeping track of what they do. Its nice to see someone with such talent to also possess some humility. I like my rock stars humble. It seems kinda weird to be bantering back and forth through emails with someone I think of as a rock star. Hmmmm.....
Anyway, I'm going to go stretch some canvas, and try to finish getting it primed today. That will leave me tomorrow since I have a rare free all day day to focus on creation. I think creation is something else I need right now. Creation and reclaiming the world around me. That's my new plan. And I like it way better than any I've had for a while.