WOOHOO!. I'm A-OK 
. The doc said the x-rays look fine; no lung problems, no heart problems. I got some CDs to reward myself - Hsker D's Zen Arcade, Henry Rollins' Get In The Van: On The Road With Black Flag, Morrissey's Our Frank single, The Shins' Know Your Onion!, and Oh, Inverted World, and Flake Music's (now The Shins) When You Land Here, It's Time To Return. I'm listening to the Rollins CD and its great. I just finished The Solipsist by Rollins (Ariana got it autographed by the man himself when he came to URI!), and it was good, but really depressing. Anyway, my heart is fine, my lungs are fine, so that is good, and now I have to go to work 
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7 or so hours later
Another uneventful night at work. I finished listening to Get In The Van: On The Road with Black Flag, all two and a half hours of it. And it depressed the fuck out of me...today was a weird day. I was driving to my doctor's appointment and I had Bright Eyes on and i started crying...I'm kinda starting to cry now...I think I am really fucked up. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. I feel so disconnected to everything and everyone. I feel trapped, by school, by my job, my family, my girlfriend. I feel like everyone wants something from me and that the only reason why they love me. I know this isn't true, but i still feel like people expect me to be of service to them all the time. And I feel like a dissappointment to everyone, and that my life is going nowhere. I don't know what to do...I'm sorry to be such a downer, and I'm not looking for pity; sometimes things make more sense when they're in writing. Maybe I need to listen to Smash It Upn and Because You're Young, they always cheer me up...I just think i"m overtired, and I'll be fine in the morning. I don't know. I should go to bed.
G'nite
. The doc said the x-rays look fine; no lung problems, no heart problems. I got some CDs to reward myself - Hsker D's Zen Arcade, Henry Rollins' Get In The Van: On The Road With Black Flag, Morrissey's Our Frank single, The Shins' Know Your Onion!, and Oh, Inverted World, and Flake Music's (now The Shins) When You Land Here, It's Time To Return. I'm listening to the Rollins CD and its great. I just finished The Solipsist by Rollins (Ariana got it autographed by the man himself when he came to URI!), and it was good, but really depressing. Anyway, my heart is fine, my lungs are fine, so that is good, and now I have to go to work .
7 or so hours later
Another uneventful night at work. I finished listening to Get In The Van: On The Road with Black Flag, all two and a half hours of it. And it depressed the fuck out of me...today was a weird day. I was driving to my doctor's appointment and I had Bright Eyes on and i started crying...I'm kinda starting to cry now...I think I am really fucked up. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. I feel so disconnected to everything and everyone. I feel trapped, by school, by my job, my family, my girlfriend. I feel like everyone wants something from me and that the only reason why they love me. I know this isn't true, but i still feel like people expect me to be of service to them all the time. And I feel like a dissappointment to everyone, and that my life is going nowhere. I don't know what to do...I'm sorry to be such a downer, and I'm not looking for pity; sometimes things make more sense when they're in writing. Maybe I need to listen to Smash It Upn and Because You're Young, they always cheer me up...I just think i"m overtired, and I'll be fine in the morning. I don't know. I should go to bed.
G'nite
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abra:
such good news! and thanks for the support.
user092840:
And thanks to you, I just went to Newbury Comics and bought CD's. Ha. You inspired me to spend money. 