irishsbuffy

I have been thinking about my mom today. I am sad for her. She has been so sad for so long. Long before my dad died. Now we are marking the 10 year anniversary of his death in March.
The problem with my mom, is that she is sick. She has diabetes, blood clots, and servre mental health problems. I worry that she will pass this on to me.
I got a long letter from my best friend since 7th grade. Over 20 years. She is the one person in my life that no matter what, I will always be there for her and she will always be there for me. She asked me how I was doing because she has not heard from me in a long time.
I cant wait to catch her up on my life and tell her that I am getting better and better. I have started owning my life. You know not just all the good stuff but the bad stuff too. I know that I am no saint. I know that I have hurt people and I feel badly for it. I have hurt my family, I have hurt friends and I am more than willing to take responsability for my actions. However, I am not hating myself because I have come to the acceptance that in any relationship it takes two.
Ok.. I am rambled.
Buffy