2004 is drawing to an end and a lot of good has happen and some bad has happened. I reflect on this time..
1) I got sick, really sick, with a blood clot the size of a grapefruit in left leg. At one point the best possible outcome I would have lost my foot. The worst would mean I would lose my life. Guess what? With the right doctors and the love and support of my Irish I overcame it and have been in much better help.
2)I had a problem with panic attacks. Again with good doctors I have made massive progress on controling them.
3) A person that I considered my best friend ended our friendship. It was really hard. I loved her very much and despite her actions will always say if asked, she is a good person. I have been accused by her about talking shit about her to anyone who would listen. I haven't. She cant say the same thing as I have had mutual friends ask how I could be so mean to poor her. The good part, there is a good part, for the time she was in my life. I learned a lot from her and her family and will cherish it. If I had one wish for her it would be that through this all she can find some peace in her pain.
4) I was away from my daughters. It has been a year since I have seen them. It's not like I haven't tried to see them but money has been an issuse. We simply dont have the money and I know neither does their father. In the new year, I will see them if it takes selling everything I have, I will see them.
5) I have gotten some of the best people in the world back in my life and look forward to mending bridges that were burned between us.
6) I have new friends that I cant wait to get to know better. There is so many wonderful people in this world. I am going to open my heart to all of them.
7) I am leaving SG. I love this site and the people I have met but it is time for me to move on. Please contact me or leave a comment before 1/4. That is when it is all over for a while. I may come back who knows...
Most of all 2004 has been a year where I have fallen more in love with Irish. He is a great human.
Buffy
1) I got sick, really sick, with a blood clot the size of a grapefruit in left leg. At one point the best possible outcome I would have lost my foot. The worst would mean I would lose my life. Guess what? With the right doctors and the love and support of my Irish I overcame it and have been in much better help.
2)I had a problem with panic attacks. Again with good doctors I have made massive progress on controling them.
3) A person that I considered my best friend ended our friendship. It was really hard. I loved her very much and despite her actions will always say if asked, she is a good person. I have been accused by her about talking shit about her to anyone who would listen. I haven't. She cant say the same thing as I have had mutual friends ask how I could be so mean to poor her. The good part, there is a good part, for the time she was in my life. I learned a lot from her and her family and will cherish it. If I had one wish for her it would be that through this all she can find some peace in her pain.
4) I was away from my daughters. It has been a year since I have seen them. It's not like I haven't tried to see them but money has been an issuse. We simply dont have the money and I know neither does their father. In the new year, I will see them if it takes selling everything I have, I will see them.
5) I have gotten some of the best people in the world back in my life and look forward to mending bridges that were burned between us.
6) I have new friends that I cant wait to get to know better. There is so many wonderful people in this world. I am going to open my heart to all of them.
7) I am leaving SG. I love this site and the people I have met but it is time for me to move on. Please contact me or leave a comment before 1/4. That is when it is all over for a while. I may come back who knows...
Most of all 2004 has been a year where I have fallen more in love with Irish. He is a great human.
Buffy