irishsbuffy

Do you know someone who is a liar and a hypocrite? Do you know someone who has a black heart and soul? I think the only way to describe a person that I met recently. To the outside world when the want to they are either the poor victim of life's horrid crimes or they are so happy the world is rainbows and teddy bears. It is all an act. It is all the a ploy for them to gain self worth, self acceptance, and of course make them think they have all the power in the world. The thing is they are not a poor victim and their perfect life is just bullshit unless they are using someone as their patsy. Their latest story I was told to my face, I fuck this person over when this person would not fuck me. Really, because they also told people that we were in a relationship. You know I never fucked the person in question. Despite this fact, I have always said good things about them and yes I loved them. But you see, I found out after all the shit hit the fan and I refused to acknolweldge their fit, this person - told me to fuck off and we are not friends anymore. They are the one who ended everything. They are the ones who are crying victim and sending the nasty e-mails. They are the one who continued to read this and other journals and use it for the bases of their gossip and how I am the horrible person. I ask that any who read my journal - please. please read my entries and you will see I have NEVER once named names. I have gone out of my way to make sure of it. I could say that (Insert Name) is a fucking cunt/prick who did this, this and this, and believe me if pushed in a corner I have the power to do the same thing. I will tell all and I will start at the begining. I am sure there are a lot of stories they would rather I not say. Their image would be shattered. It would not be hearts and flowers and I would not care. I would personally make it my mission in life to destroy this person. Destroy heart and destroy their soul. In the end when they are broken and need someone, anyone to be human to them. I will look down on them and spit in their face.
I know this is not like me. Many who have met me in person knwo that I am all soft and sweet. I am really a kitten who loves way to much and cares way to much. I am more than willing to give my shirt of my back, my last dollar, my heart and soul to my friends. I will be there for anything and I often times take their words and desires to heart even if means that mine have to go to the wayside.
However, the ugly side, the side that started this letter, the one who is so fucking sick and tired of having to watch everything I say and do has come to the surface. I know how this person works and find it odd that they are the first to jump your shit about lying or spreading rumors and they do it all the time.
As I close this journal entry, I want to tell all of you. I am who I am. You may not agree with some of my lifestyle choices but I am not asking you to join in.
My name is Buffy, I am a swinger, I am bisexual, I am a submissive wife, I like to be tied up and I am proud of who I am. I am a writer, I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend. I have made my share of screw ups and have a lot of success in my life.
The best thing I can say about myself, I sleep at night knowing I dont betray my friends. If I get mad at someone I would not use their past against them. I know what ever path you go makes you who you are when you cross my path. I love you all for that.
Buffy