irishsbuffy

Well, well, well, it is Sunday and in an hour I will be trying to call my daughters. This is my most favorite time of the week. For the few minutes that I talk to my girls. I spent a lot of money to fight for them to live with me. But when you are going someone who is getting a free lawyer and you are scraping every single penny to pay for a lawyer, it is hard to fight. Then there was time that my daughter went through actual hell. It breaks my heart to think how much those girls went through. No child desreves that. I wish they were here though.

I am not a bad mother. I was really sick and beaten down when my ex and I got divorced. I could not find the courage to fight back. I know it was a mistake. I was still in the cycle with my mother. My mother is borderline personality disorder. I was trapped by her. I was trapped by myself.

It is cooling off in Minnesota. I love the crisp air and cant wait for winter. I know that must sound crazy for this Cali girl.

I do miss my friends from California. I espically miss Julie. She is just the sweetest person.

I will close this. Kisses all

Will have to call them tomorrow. Could not do it tonight.