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irishsbuffy

Vista, CA

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Friday Oct 08, 2004

Oct 8, 2004
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Have you ever had a feeling that the shit has hit the fan and you dont know why? Like there has been something going on and you have been compleltly clueless.

I just wish that I knew what was going on. Things are going so good, I dont want the bubble to burst. I am still working and there were a lot of people who lost their job. I am happily married and I don't want anything to mess that up. I am thankful that my husband came into my life. He does the little things. He takes me to work. Now, this at times have made it hard for him. The good thing is that we have been able to help a friend in need with rides.

Right now, I am sitting here after having a long talk with him about money. My check was late and we were upside down in our account again. So, tonight we had the tough talk. We are going to have to make major changes in our life. One of the things we are going to have to do is get rid of my truck. It really is his truck - bought for me. It has ended costing us so much in gas (it drinks it), repairs (we still have 1300 worth of the repairs to be done for it to be safe), and insurance which is an extra expense we just cant afford. Here is the problem. There is a good chance that my job could end in two weeks if the projects dont come in. The extra money that we have got since I got this job has been put to paying off the medical bills and I have taken some for a rainy day. After all, it would be real rainy if my job ends. Oh it is not me feeling sorry for myself. It was about me being real. So, my hubby and I have decided to sell the truck for as much as we can get for it. The money will go to pay for the repairs that are needed on the Jeep. The boy noticed that our lights are acting funny. He is not happy about it. He really wanted that car. It sucks to be with just one car. Espically if I have to get another job.
You see we had this illusion that we were not hurting for money. I never asked because I trusted him. However, when he started not sleeping I knew that something was up.
I have not talked to anyone about it. I have to put on the happy face because those close to me are also suffering right now. I worry about them.
Sometimes, I have bent over backwards to help people just out of love and there are people out there who have done the same for me when I was in a bad place. I am very lucky.
The Twins lost tonight. They lost BAD. You should have heard the people around here. I mean there were some really mad people. Really mad.

Well, that is it for me... tonight. If the shit has hit the fan then I will go on. I am stronger. Just have to deal with the shit that happens and learn if I have made a mistake try not to do it again.

Ok.. I have rambled enough and the boy would like me to come to bed.

Shelby
charitee:
writing you an email.. check tomorrow.. sending to personal account, not SG mail.

[Edited on Oct 08, 2004 9:49PM]
Oct 8, 2004

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