irishsbuffy

I just talked to my daughters and all the shit that I have felt is gone.

I miss them but they love me. They told me they love me.

My life is perfect.

Today, I went to see my therapist. I am feeling a lot better. I have some new medication to stop the panic attacks. Then I came home I got even better medicine. I got a letter and camera full of pictures from our daughters. I miss them so much.

I am feeling better. I am still very hurt by a person being crule. But I...
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I got hurt really bad this weekend. In the end, I realized that the decison to end a relationship was right. This person was a person I truly loved and would have done anything for and they were so fucking mean and hateful. I swore that I was sitting in the room with my mother. I am destroyed but I am done.

Ant: I PROMISE...
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Well, well, well, it is Sunday and in an hour I will be trying to call my daughters. This is my most favorite time of the week. For the few minutes that I talk to my girls. I spent a lot of money to fight for them to live with me. But when you are going someone who is getting a free lawyer and you...
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You know, at first I started an entry because I got a nasty e-mail from a former friend. But since I had a chance to think and cool down. I will say this.

This person is a good person. She is a good mother. She can be a good friend. However, she and I can't be friends. I can't be around her. This is by...
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I ramble way too much.

Coffee - 3.00 Cheese Bagles - 2.50 Breakfast with my baby: Priceless.

Good Afternoon my friends. I have been trying to send all of you postive thoughts and love. Things are good here. It has been a week and I fiannly dont hurt anymore. Mostly because I have found that my TRUE friends are the ones who saw me fuck up and love me anyway....
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Hi, my name is Buffy. Really my name is Buffy. I am 36 and I want to take control of my life.

Ok, first of all, anyone can read my journal again. My Irish told me that by blocking people because of one person is allowing that person to bully me. To runaway.

So, I changed it. I mean if I did not have an...
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Good Night. Good Love

Yes, Dakota you know silent bob. He has a totaly hot wife. I will tell you when I see you. Lets just say, a LONG converstation with them has open my eyes to a lot of things that I had no idea was being said. The thing is the person in question look me right in the EYE and LIED TO ME. Bold face LIED....
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I took out my last entry because it was written when I was upset. I dont like to write when I am upset becausee then my words are hurtful.

So, last night I went out with the neatest people. 40 of my closest friends. It was great. We went between two bars. I have one friend who was in the musical Rent. Of course my...
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Life repeats itself. It is only when we truly learn from our mistakes that we break the cycle. It is when we get the courage to truly look at ourselves and our willing to see our flaws and the pattern that we can change the cycle and hope for a better tomorrow. Because no matter how many times you read a book the ending is...
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