irishhotsauce

due to my 7 hours of work, i did not have sex last night, but i did get some loving in the morning, so its all good. i have realized that i can no longer shower by myself. if it werent for my boyfriend i would be dirty, bc if i dont shower with him, i just go home and sit in the bath tub, but dont actually do anything but get water on myself.
i cant stop listening to against me. i have had it in my head since saturday night and now i have it playing on my computer, and even though i am listening i keep wanting to hear more. its really weird. i am in a freaking weird mood right now. i want to call off work right now and go get ink and then go out side and slide down a wet muddy mountain. i dont know whats going on in my head. i dont have anymoney until tomorrow. i need to get an oil change, new windshield wipers , birth control and send in my taxes. i dont want to do anything. i am just sitting here naked freaking out inside of my head. i dont want to leave. i want him to come over here after work and fuck me i want to not have to put clothes on i dont want to go to work, i just want to listen to against me and then go to walgreens and get a disposible camera and take pictures of me sliding down a wet muddy hill naked and then develope them and look at them. what the fuck is wrong with me. me head is going to explode. i dont know if i am over whelmed. i want to get drunk right now. i need to think of an excuse to call off work. i cant breathe right, my heart is pounding and my feet are asleep. i love someone. i cant get dressed. fuck what the hell is going on.