I'm completely devastated right now. Had my second ultra sound and they couldn't find anything. It appears with the last bit of bleeding a I did indeed lose the baby. All I want to do right now is sit in the dark and cry. It isn't fair that a women who wants just to have the "perfect pregnancy" is able to get pregnant, carry to term just to neglect the baby and make her 11 year old daughter be primary caregiver when someone like myself who wants a baby so much, who would actually care for the child and teach it proper values loses hers. Don't know what to do or think right now. 
*goes and curls up with teddy bear and cries*
*goes and curls up with teddy bear and cries*