irishheart

So it's officially over. He was sentenced today and I think he got less then what he really deserved. Apparently he's already got a date for this evening. I can only assume this is with the woman he told me about several times if it hadn't been for me it would have been her. Well I hope she realizes she's second choice and I hope she knows why and how she's getting this second chance with him. Either that or it's actually an online "date" with a certain someone from this site which in that case his "date" is actually with his hand.

I don't know this is bothering me so much knowing he's moving on. It's what I wanted and what I've been trying to encourage him to do but still he's flaunting it in my face it feels. Perhaps I'm upset because it seems he has everything he ever wanted now and I'm stuck living on a friends couch still, broke and struggling to pick up the pieces.

The good news is that I got the apartment I looked at and hopefully I'll be able to move in for the 1st of August. It's small but it has great cute potential. I've been seeing someone myself for a little while now(I just had the decency not to brag about it where I knew he'd see it)I'm pretty happy and in a weird sort of way it's thanks to him we found our way back to each other.

But yet it's still bothering me and it's bothering me even more that I can't figure out why it's bothering me.



Oh ya and it wasn't alcohol that caused all this, it was his own self loathing and denying the fact he needed the help I continuously begged him for months to get. 2 months does not mean you beat it, just means you made a smart decision...............this time