irishheart

So this weekend...........................

I went to a birthday party for a friends daughter. It was fun, it was rainy and windy for some of the day but we still had fun. I got tossed in the lake, saved the smoke I had going, the rest of my pack wasn't so fortunate, there were no survivors lol

You ever have that feeling that you have no...
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So it's been 2 months since I ran from my home screaming in the middle of the night. 2 months since my world was shattered. So much has changed. I feel like I'm getting stronger every day. Thanks to the love and support of my family and a few very good friends. I still have my moments but they seem to be getting easier to...
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You know what they say when you assume things?

Maybe I put "I'm not telling" as my relationship status because it's NO BODIES business but my own. Ever stop to think I bought the cross stitch pattern simple because I liked it and wanted something to do since all my materials and patterns are spread out across 3 counties and I'm not even sure what...
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Anger is bubbling very near the surface and I feel like it might explode at any moment, just when and who may be the poor soul to be around me when it explodes is the question.

I feel like I'm still being minipulated, guilted and being dragged back into drama I'm no longer nor do I have any wish to be part of. I know...
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So today is the last day of school and a while ago I made a promise to my step children that if they(all of them) get straight A's and B's I would give up smoking. So now I'm wondering if this is my last day as a smoker? Even tho I no longer see them or even really talk to them if they came through...
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So I decided to take some time off to process some of my thoughts about what happened and what's been happening. I'm still having mixed feelings about the whole thing. I still feel like I'm on a emotional roller coaster and I'm ready to get off! I'm still having nightmares about the night and I'm still angry and hurt. I also still miss him and...
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It's so hard saying good bye to a loved one, especially one you loved so much, one that was your hero. Late Saturday night my Granny passed away. This in a weird way was kind of a blessing. Back in 2001 she had a major stroke and has slowly been dying since, a few months ago she was diagnosed with inoperable cancers. Last Tuesday my...
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3 weeks ago my perfect life was shattered. My dream became a nightmare that still haunts me. When I returned to the house, the terror overtook me. I had come back to do a job, to pack up my life and try to move on, to heal myself. I wandered into the bedroom and found his Kangaroo lying on the bed; I picked it up...
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From "The Fox and The Hound"

We met it seems, such a short time ago.
You looked at me, needing me so.
Yet from your sadness, our happiness grew.
Then I found out, I needed you, too.
I remember how we used to play.
I recall those rainy days, the fires glowed, that kept us warm.
And now I find, we're both alone.
Goodbye may...
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Never Ending

Lower my body gently
Bruised, battered, bloody and broken
Shattered is my soul
Heart torn from my chest
Nothing left to feel
I welcome the cool dampness
As the earth slowly swallows me
Envelopes me like a blanket
The chill invades me
But comforts
Into an never ending sleep

New Set posted

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So I'm meeting my mother in Kingston tomorrow for a day of shopping and "bonding". This is supposed to be my Christmas and birthday gifts from her. I'm kinda nervous about this as my mother and I don't get along all that well w hen we are exposed to each other for a prolonged period of time but on the other hand I'm kind of...
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