irishandbuffy

I am really pissed off right now. I would scream if I thought it would accomplish anything but it wont. I want to hit and kick something but that wont help either. I have to face the fact that the girls are in California with Rat Bastard. I have been social with the little prick. Nice. So what does he do tonight during the converstation with Leslie. HE LISTENS! What the fuck. I am telling her to listen to her dad and be a good girl and the mother fucker still listens in. He is up to something. I feel like another trip to court. He knows I cant afford it and I dont have a lawyer. So I am fucked because he gets leagl aid. Is this my karma for something I did. Am I NOT suppose to be happy and feel just a little peace in my life.
I feel like taking a long bath and just letting the water take me over. I have cried today but not in pain but in hapiness that someone I thought I pushed away a friendship that I thought I fucked up wasnt. I was happy. Then this.
I should have expected as much. Today has had a bad omen to it but ever the optomist I was looking for the good. The bright. The positive. Turn a blind eye to the bad. Am I becoming like my mother. God I hope not. She is evil... Depsite what my DNA thinks. I lived with it. I saw and heard a lot more than I should have. I saw the worst.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Good Night