Is it odd that I love the rain. The lightning and the thunder used to scare me so bad and now it fasinates me. I wonder if I am changing because I feel secure in my life at least my marriage. The rest of my life is upside down. I am trying to accept things easier than I did before. I stop worrying that I cant save the world and have to learn to save myself first.
I watched a show on Showtime. Called Out of Order. The amazing thing is the lead character is suffering from depression and I saw me. I saw the nightmare that I put my Irish and my friends through. I am scared to go to back to that place.
The nightmares have all but gone. Last night the fire alarm open up the most strange dream world. I wish I could go back and understand it better. Maybe tonight I will return
Peace is mine. More than ever I feel happy and accepting of the world around me.
I wish that I could accept it. Like the Kabala says true happiness comes from owning your life. All of it. The good and the bad. The good is easy the bad is harder.
I wish you all peace
I watched a show on Showtime. Called Out of Order. The amazing thing is the lead character is suffering from depression and I saw me. I saw the nightmare that I put my Irish and my friends through. I am scared to go to back to that place.
The nightmares have all but gone. Last night the fire alarm open up the most strange dream world. I wish I could go back and understand it better. Maybe tonight I will return
Peace is mine. More than ever I feel happy and accepting of the world around me.
I wish that I could accept it. Like the Kabala says true happiness comes from owning your life. All of it. The good and the bad. The good is easy the bad is harder.
I wish you all peace
-Z
Wanna come sit and sort toys with me? LOL! Cameron get's here on Tuesday night. I get to spend the weekend getting the boys rooms ready. It's actually a fun process, I do it every year.. I sit and play with toys all day.. regression can be fun! lol!
I miss you B.. call... k?
-Me