I want to go home. 
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Sorry for that depressing and mopey entry the other day. I was not having a very good day, and just needed to feel sorry for myself for a bit.
School really kicks my ass, which gets to me sometimes, because I know that I have it in me to do extremely well, and yet I don't put the effort into it like I should. I...
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School really kicks my ass, which gets to me sometimes, because I know that I have it in me to do extremely well, and yet I don't put the effort into it like I should. I...
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slipinsin:
I'm fine. I just lost it a bit last night, that's all... 
Have you thought about switching majors to something completely different (not just from forensics to chem)? Maybe you're in the wrong field? Maybe that's why you haven't been, as you wrote, putting forth the effort in your classes? Right now that is what's happening to me. I've realized that I'm not in the right program, and consequently, I don't give a good fuck about any of my classes. I'm half-assing everything this semester, even though, on those few occasions that I've actually put forth some effort, I've done well, and could continue to do well if I would just decide to consistently care. But that's the problem- I don't.
It's too late for me though. I'm only several credits away from being a senior, and I've finished most of the requirements for the major. Switching now would waste more than half of the classes I've taken... But, if I remember correctly, you're a sophomore, right? You have plenty of time to switch.
And if you do, don't think of it as "I can't reach my goals in this program, so I'm going to bail out of it". That's not what's happening. Instead, think "these weren't the goals that I was intended to finish, I'll be happier and more enthusiastic doing something else; and when I do find out what that right-thing for me is, I will be very successful doing it". I know that might sound a little cosmic, but it's very practical. Think about this: when you started college, you were 18, right? How many 18 year-olds really know what they should major in, much less know what they should to do with the rest of their lives. No one does... Or should... And if your parents put pressure on you to stay in this program if you decide that you don't want to, tell them to that it's not their life (as hard as that may be; I know my parents, even though I'm 25, can be pretty demanding).
I hope this helped. Maybe it wasn't relevant to your situation at all? If so, sorry for wasting all the space. LOL. It's just that, when an intelligent person (and you seem very bright) puts little effort into something they're doing, that lack of effort is because they'd really rather not be doing it, and not because they can't do it... Or, at least, I think so.
Hmm, I'm going to go shave my legs too... And my balls, while I'm at it.
(That was just a joke... I seem to be pissing people off lately with my comments. I don't want to do that to you.)
Have you thought about switching majors to something completely different (not just from forensics to chem)? Maybe you're in the wrong field? Maybe that's why you haven't been, as you wrote, putting forth the effort in your classes? Right now that is what's happening to me. I've realized that I'm not in the right program, and consequently, I don't give a good fuck about any of my classes. I'm half-assing everything this semester, even though, on those few occasions that I've actually put forth some effort, I've done well, and could continue to do well if I would just decide to consistently care. But that's the problem- I don't.
It's too late for me though. I'm only several credits away from being a senior, and I've finished most of the requirements for the major. Switching now would waste more than half of the classes I've taken... But, if I remember correctly, you're a sophomore, right? You have plenty of time to switch.
And if you do, don't think of it as "I can't reach my goals in this program, so I'm going to bail out of it". That's not what's happening. Instead, think "these weren't the goals that I was intended to finish, I'll be happier and more enthusiastic doing something else; and when I do find out what that right-thing for me is, I will be very successful doing it". I know that might sound a little cosmic, but it's very practical. Think about this: when you started college, you were 18, right? How many 18 year-olds really know what they should major in, much less know what they should to do with the rest of their lives. No one does... Or should... And if your parents put pressure on you to stay in this program if you decide that you don't want to, tell them to that it's not their life (as hard as that may be; I know my parents, even though I'm 25, can be pretty demanding).
I hope this helped. Maybe it wasn't relevant to your situation at all? If so, sorry for wasting all the space. LOL. It's just that, when an intelligent person (and you seem very bright) puts little effort into something they're doing, that lack of effort is because they'd really rather not be doing it, and not because they can't do it... Or, at least, I think so.
Hmm, I'm going to go shave my legs too... And my balls, while I'm at it.
(That was just a joke... I seem to be pissing people off lately with my comments. I don't want to do that to you.)
fireball2004:
Organic huh? Ummmm, I'm in medical school, and I'm an organic whiz, as you might imagine from being in medical school. I was actually number 2 in my class in college, out of 165 people, both in orgo I and orgo II. Okay, enough bragging. Organic is still big in medical school, at least during the first year, after that its not. Best of the best of luck to you with your finals.
Is there a guy named Aaron Funk ("funk") in your class. And a girl named Randy? They are great friends of mine. Tell them hi for me if they are in your class.
Yeah, my finals strat Friday and end Wed. they are all cumulative, anf at this point, due to the dizzying breadth and encycopedic volume of material, all you can do is breath in and out, not think about it too much, and just rely on how well you learned it all during the semester. Thats it. I'll be fine. And then, on to SC. yeah baby!
damn girl, I love flavor-ice too.
Well, again, do well and please don't go nuts and psychotic about it. When all else fails and it gets cruch time, don't worry about trying to "get it all", just start to narrow it all down and focus on the things that the most important and that you know 100% will be on the exam. Hey, get point where you can right?
Well, take care babe!
adam
Is there a guy named Aaron Funk ("funk") in your class. And a girl named Randy? They are great friends of mine. Tell them hi for me if they are in your class.
Yeah, my finals strat Friday and end Wed. they are all cumulative, anf at this point, due to the dizzying breadth and encycopedic volume of material, all you can do is breath in and out, not think about it too much, and just rely on how well you learned it all during the semester. Thats it. I'll be fine. And then, on to SC. yeah baby!
damn girl, I love flavor-ice too.
Well, again, do well and please don't go nuts and psychotic about it. When all else fails and it gets cruch time, don't worry about trying to "get it all", just start to narrow it all down and focus on the things that the most important and that you know 100% will be on the exam. Hey, get point where you can right?
Well, take care babe!
adam
today's one of those days. you know the type where you want to crawl in a hole and never come out.
i was feeling pretty great last night for about 20 minutes. then it went downhill from there.
i like this school and everything but sometimes i think that shael is the only reason i'm staying here. i mean, it's not like i'm going to...
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i was feeling pretty great last night for about 20 minutes. then it went downhill from there.
i like this school and everything but sometimes i think that shael is the only reason i'm staying here. i mean, it's not like i'm going to...
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slipinsin:
I'm not having the greatest school-experience myself. In fact, I (seriously) think that I might drop out after this semester. My not-very-prectical social science degree is going to be worthless... If I'm going to end up with a shitty, low-paying job, then I'd rather just jump into it now instead of racking-up another two semester's worth of student loans. Yes, I'm only a year away from graduation. I should just finish. Maybe I will, maybe I won't... Oh, I also fucking hate Morgantown. I've lived here since I was ten. It's too damn small...
Hope tomorrow is better for you...
I've lived here since I was ten. It's too damn small...
Hope tomorrow is better for you...
Vacation is wrapping up. Heading back to Shael's tomorrow, then Sunday we will drive back to school. Then two more weeks of classes, a week of finals, and I'll be home again. The next three weeks are going to be hell. The amount of studying that I have to do is unbelievable.
Winter break is shaping out to be pretty good though. I'll be working...
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Winter break is shaping out to be pretty good though. I'll be working...
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AHHHHHH!!!! 
I think my blood is boiling. Shael's mother drives me CRAZY!!! If I end up marrying him, I will be one of the many people who dislike their mother in-law. Here's what just happened:
Shael and I have been talking about getting him plane tickets to come visit over our winter break. I looked at the calendar and saw that New Year's Eve would...
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I think my blood is boiling. Shael's mother drives me CRAZY!!! If I end up marrying him, I will be one of the many people who dislike their mother in-law. Here's what just happened:
Shael and I have been talking about getting him plane tickets to come visit over our winter break. I looked at the calendar and saw that New Year's Eve would...
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slipinsin:
I can empathize. That sounds like something my Mom would do. In fact, when I was 22, my Mom freaked-out when I told her that I was going on a plane-trip with a few cousins. "He's never been on a plane without me" (the last time I flew was when I was three and she and I went to Florida). I was sooo fucking mad when she said that (not to mention embarrassed- she said it to several family members). She pitched such a fit that I ended up giving in and not going (I was living at home then, and it was hard to avoid her bitching and screaming)...
I love my Mom, but, she treats me like I'm ten...
As for your comment "it's clear to see that most of the problems he has now stem from his childhood and the way they parented him, that strikes a cord with me as well... Not that I know exactly what you're referring to, but...... Ah hell, it's 4 AM, I need to get some sleep... Have a nice Thanksgiving.
I love my Mom, but, she treats me like I'm ten...
As for your comment "it's clear to see that most of the problems he has now stem from his childhood and the way they parented him, that strikes a cord with me as well... Not that I know exactly what you're referring to, but...... Ah hell, it's 4 AM, I need to get some sleep... Have a nice Thanksgiving.
I'M HOOOOOME
I got in tonight at about 6:30, went to Uno's with my parents, and now I'm just sitting around... in MY room! Not in a shitty little dorm room where I am constantly irritated by something, whether it is my suitemates who always shit up the bathroom (literally), or the cigarette stench coming in the window from the cafe workers taking their breaks,...
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I got in tonight at about 6:30, went to Uno's with my parents, and now I'm just sitting around... in MY room! Not in a shitty little dorm room where I am constantly irritated by something, whether it is my suitemates who always shit up the bathroom (literally), or the cigarette stench coming in the window from the cafe workers taking their breaks,...
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fireball2004:
Hey there, wow, it must be nice to be home. Ilmm be at my home, in SC, in ummmm, about 24 hours. I have to take a board exam in the morning, and then off I go, on the 9 hour drive. Sunny weather, all high school friends, my dog, my sister, warm meals, being able to relax, ahhhhh, they all await me!!!
I didn't know you lived in a dormroom at WVU. Do you have a car in Morgantown? I live by the other campus, the health science-evansdale area, literally right across the street from the big Ruby hospital, and a few blocks from the big student gym.
Anyway, have a nice thanksgiving, and enjoy yourself. I sure as hell know I will.
Talk to you later,
adam
I didn't know you lived in a dormroom at WVU. Do you have a car in Morgantown? I live by the other campus, the health science-evansdale area, literally right across the street from the big Ruby hospital, and a few blocks from the big student gym.
Anyway, have a nice thanksgiving, and enjoy yourself. I sure as hell know I will.
Talk to you later,
adam
flamesofhades:
Hey your home!!! look out VERMONT!!! How was Philly??? did you go??have you reached a conclusion about the SG question?? Well have fun on vacation Happy thanksgiving!!
Yay for Danielle and Manko!!!! YAY!!!! 
slipinsin:
An even better thought: Yay for Danielle and Manko together... 
An even better better thought than that: Yay for Danielle and Manko together with me in the middle...
Oh wait, this is your journal-page... How about: Yay for Danielle and Manko together with you in the middle...
...And me video-taping...
Just kidding. Sort of...
...Sorry, I'm just in one of those moods. It was probably brought on by pic #19 in Danielle's new set... God damn that girl looks fucking HOT in those fish-nets and high-heels!!!
Have a nice Thanksgiving break...
An even better better thought than that: Yay for Danielle and Manko together with me in the middle...
Oh wait, this is your journal-page... How about: Yay for Danielle and Manko together with you in the middle...
...And me video-taping...
Just kidding. Sort of...
...Sorry, I'm just in one of those moods. It was probably brought on by pic #19 in Danielle's new set... God damn that girl looks fucking HOT in those fish-nets and high-heels!!!
Have a nice Thanksgiving break...
My predictament:
My application photos were accepted. So I'm on my way to becoming a full-fledged Suicide Girl. I really want to do this. But I can't help but worry about someone (my parents in particular) finding out and their heads exploding with anger/disappointment/disbelief or whatever other reactions they could have. There's no way on Earth they would be supportive of displaying my naked butt...
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My application photos were accepted. So I'm on my way to becoming a full-fledged Suicide Girl. I really want to do this. But I can't help but worry about someone (my parents in particular) finding out and their heads exploding with anger/disappointment/disbelief or whatever other reactions they could have. There's no way on Earth they would be supportive of displaying my naked butt...
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slipinsin:
Hello again...
You're parents will never find out. Even if someone who knows them happens to see the pics, chances are they wouldn't tell them...
I'm not your friend anymore? Aww...
You're parents will never find out. Even if someone who knows them happens to see the pics, chances are they wouldn't tell them...
I'm not your friend anymore? Aww...
persona:
You've probably already made up your mind to do it. So just do it, be confident in yourself as it sounds like you are. Worry about someone finding out if they find out. They wouldn't dis-own you right
and hi! thanks for being my friend. I look forward to many little chats 
and hi! thanks for being my friend. I look forward to many little chats
Just walked back from class with Seanna It turns out she lives right behind me! How convenient!
On a still happy note, I bowled a 102 today. My all time best is 113. Hopefully by the end of the class I'll be able to break that.
OK. Now for the shitty stuff. I have a organic chem exam tomorrow night and I'm completely unprepared for...
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It turns out she lives right behind me! How convenient!
On a still happy note, I bowled a 102 today. My all time best is 113. Hopefully by the end of the class I'll be able to break that.
OK. Now for the shitty stuff. I have a organic chem exam tomorrow night and I'm completely unprepared for...
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The end of a fairly decent weekend. I feel like my emotions have been put through the gauntlet though. It's a crazy thing to realize how much someone means to you--when you realize they mean more than mostly anything else.
Our first "anniversary" is next Sunday, the 14th. There have been quite a few times this semester that I knew we wouldn't make it. Funny...
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Our first "anniversary" is next Sunday, the 14th. There have been quite a few times this semester that I knew we wouldn't make it. Funny...
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slipinsin:
I hope most of the things that were said were good things, and I hope most of the feelings that were revealed helped more than they hurt...
And I hope that things work out for you and him, and that you both have a great anniversary...
My membership is up tomorrow. I'll IM you and say "Hi" every once in while, and maybe if I recognize you on campus again I'll stop and introduce myself...
Or maybe we'll pass each other a hundred times over the next two-and-a-half years and be completely oblivious to the other's presence... LOL
Bye...
And I hope that things work out for you and him, and that you both have a great anniversary...
My membership is up tomorrow.
I'll IM you and say "Hi" every once in while, and maybe if I recognize you on campus again I'll stop and introduce myself...
Or maybe we'll pass each other a hundred times over the next two-and-a-half years and be completely oblivious to the other's presence... LOL
Bye...
Love always,
JP
If it's school... Don't worry, the semester's almost over! Yay!
I live here. So, once I'm done with finals, I get to go nowhere... And when the students leave for the winter break, this place becomes a ghost town (it's not so bad in the summer, since something like 5,000 students stay to take classes). One of my roomates, and most of my friends, will be heading home. My sister (who is my other roomate), will probably spend 99% of her time at her boyfriend's place. I'm going to be so lonely! ...sniffle... ...sniffle...
If I don't talk to you over AIM before next week: Good luck on all of your exams, have a safe trip home, and have a very merry Christmas and a Happy, drunk New Year!
Still, I can't wait until the moment that I walk out of my last final!