things are ok. the talk with shael went well... included a couple tears shed on my part, but still it went well. i told him everything i wanted to, and i think he's learned his lesson. if anything, i know it made him feel shitty to see how upset i was about him not calling me and being a jerk. mission accomplished. is it bad that i went into the whole thing just hoping it would make him feel terrible? sometimes i think he's just a stupid boy, and doesn't think about his actions and their consequences before he does them. we've been together nine months, he should know by now, that not calling me will make me overthink and worry!! ah well, the bump has been smoothed and i am happy again.
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As far as going into it to make him feel bad... Is that really what you wanted to do, or did you just want him to understand how much it hurt when it felt like he was brushing you off like that?
I also just wanted to say something about your last post. Towards the end you were talking about being attached and worrying about the end of your time together; To me, that's suicide. Giving time to thoughts like that can only lead to you withdrawing a little. I'm sure I don't have to tell you this, but being completely vulnerable and open with someone that you love and loves you is the greatest thing in this world.
-JP