I don't know what the hell I clicked or downloaded that gave me an assload of viruses and spyware shit, but Jesus Christ! I spent a good 2-3 hours last night (early this morning) trying to figure out what the hell what going on. I did everything I could think of to get rid of it. I have an anti-virus program, but for whatever reason...
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FUUUUUUCK 
decayingyouth:
what's wrong?
I hope things get better.
I hope things get better.
thedevice:
hey
You know what?
I love you.
-Joshua
You know what?
I love you.
-Joshua
Note to self: Don't go all day without eating again. You turn into a royal bitch.
Anyway, that was MY day. Mostly spent in bed because everything was getting on my nerves and I just wanted out.
I just had some dinner so my mood is looking up.
Anyway, that was MY day. Mostly spent in bed because everything was getting on my nerves and I just wanted out.
I just had some dinner so my mood is looking up.
slipinsin:
When I go all day without eating, I get light-headed, and feel like I'm going to pass-out. 
I wish I could have spent most of the day in bed, as I felt like a big pile of dog-pooh (and not solid dog-pooh either, but the runny stuff). 
Instead, I sat through, and spaced-out in, two classes, simply because not going would hurt my attendance grade. I fucking hate professors who have a mandatory attendance policy. I'm paying to come to these classes (well, I will be paying once I graduate and the loan people want their money back), and I should have the right to not come if I don't feel like it, damnit! 
Sorry, guess I'm feeling a little hostile right now. Working on essay questions (while taking short breaks to look at naked SG's) at 2 AM will do that to a person...
I wish I could have spent most of the day in bed, as I felt like a big pile of dog-pooh (and not solid dog-pooh either, but the runny stuff). Instead, I sat through, and spaced-out in, two classes, simply because not going would hurt my attendance grade. I fucking hate professors who have a mandatory attendance policy. I'm paying to come to these classes (well, I will be paying once I graduate and the loan people want their money back), and I should have the right to not come if I don't feel like it, damnit!
Sorry, guess I'm feeling a little hostile right now. Working on essay questions (while taking short breaks to look at naked SG's) at 2 AM will do that to a person...
I hope you all had a wonderful Valentine's Day. I did
Shael bought me irises "that would last forever" and a rose. He picked out the best Valentine's card I've ever read and wrote some really beautiful things in it. We went to dinner at this nice Italian place in town. We had my neighbor take a couple pics of us, but they came out...
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Shael bought me irises "that would last forever" and a rose. He picked out the best Valentine's card I've ever read and wrote some really beautiful things in it. We went to dinner at this nice Italian place in town. We had my neighbor take a couple pics of us, but they came out...
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flamesofhades:
Alright great Vday!!!Lets hear it for romance clap clap.. ohhh that was paula...
Too bad about the pic..
ohh well always next time!!
HadEs
Too bad about the pic..
ohh well always next time!!
HadEs
tallredmann:
Very nice 
Thank you everyone for the comments on the new pics of Shael and me. I still can't believe how beautiful they came out.
Speaking of Shael, I don't know if any of you have experienced this, but I'm coming to learn more and more just how difficult it can be to have a relationship with someone who is depressed. I feel helpless half the time....
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I still can't believe how beautiful they came out.
Speaking of Shael, I don't know if any of you have experienced this, but I'm coming to learn more and more just how difficult it can be to have a relationship with someone who is depressed. I feel helpless half the time....
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decayingyouth:
I can only imagine how hard it is to be in a relationship with someone depressed. I hope everything works out for you. Just be careful depression has a away of eating away at everything.
I love making new friends. So you shouldnt feel like a big geek.
I love making new friends. So you shouldnt feel like a big geek.
tallredmann:
Happy Valentine's Day
Found myself a new hobby. There's this really cool bead/jewelry store downtown. Went there yesterday and bought some beads to make a necklace. It came out really cool I think.
New pics are up. Sorry they are pretty enormous. I don't have a picture editing program on my computer.... I really should get one.
New pics are up. Sorry they are pretty enormous. I don't have a picture editing program on my computer.... I really should get one.
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tallredmann:
By the way, I like all your pictures, you are very pretty 
My neck hurts like a bitch. On Tuesday, Shael came over between classes, and at some point during our rough housing, my neck was pulled one way or the other too far. It started near my shoulder blade actually. I've been heating it with one of those microwave pack things, but it just isn't getting any better. If anyone has any suggestions about how to...
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flamesofhades:
LUCKY YOU DIDNT PUT AN EYE OUT.....
thedevice:
awww dude, that was such a tease... now I'm not going to be able to sleep.
Just finished editing my first article for one of the campus papers. I'm really excited about it. I didn't write it or anything, just did some copyediting for format and grammar, things like that. My name is going in the paper as a staff member now. Wooohoooo!
Anyway, things with Shael have improved... again. It's funny how you can learn something about someone and then...
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Anyway, things with Shael have improved... again. It's funny how you can learn something about someone and then...
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thedevice:
I know I should be updating my own journal right now... but commenting on yours comes in higher on the list than my own.
just so you know my life has definatley been better since I 'met' you
Love,
joshua
p.s. I tried to make a screenshot of my desktop, but it's not working out... but here is my current background pic right now... I know you'll love it ROBY... Love her
Good night darling,
Joshua
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[Edited on Feb 01, 2005 11:16AM]
just so you know my life has definatley been better since I 'met' you
Love,
joshua
p.s. I tried to make a screenshot of my desktop, but it's not working out... but here is my current background pic right now... I know you'll love it
ROBY... Love her
Good night darling,
Joshua
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[Edited on Feb 01, 2005 11:16AM]
angelicevilchik:
yay! you're gonna be in the paper! and as a staff member
i'm glad things with shael are going good again.. more hot sex to come? what am i talking about, of course there is!
i'm glad things with shael are going good again.. more hot sex to come? what am i talking about, of course there is!
Siiiiigh... I can't sleep anymore. I keep missing classes because of it. I find myself at 2:30am staring up at the underside of the top bunk, turning from side to side in hopes of finding that perfect position that will let me sleep. My head is racing from thought to thought, and my stomach is constantly in knots. Ive been eating Tums like they were...
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thedevice:
Love
spott:
hey sweet girl! it's redfirefaery taking over her spotty's puter temporarily... just letting you know i AM still alive, and as soon as i have my own decent net connection i will be back on SG. i miss you!
sleep, when not reached by natural means, can easily be assisted by tylenol pm. not that i'm a fan of chemical means, but it works in a pinch. as far as what you can know you want--it is easy to make peace a goal. that you can have with or without anyone else. peace. when you have peace, sleep and love come smoothly and without any work. good luck
♥
firefae
sleep, when not reached by natural means, can easily be assisted by tylenol pm. not that i'm a fan of chemical means, but it works in a pinch. as far as what you can know you want--it is easy to make peace a goal. that you can have with or without anyone else. peace. when you have peace, sleep and love come smoothly and without any work. good luck
♥
firefae
Holy shit, it's the weekend already? Where did the week go? Oh, that's right, I was so busy worrying about where I'm going to live next year, the time just flew by. Listen to this:
The night before we are going to sign the lease for a really nice apartment, our 3rd person bails on us. My friend Alex and I are now pretty much...
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The night before we are going to sign the lease for a really nice apartment, our 3rd person bails on us. My friend Alex and I are now pretty much...
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tallredmann:
Hey, IRISEYES, not much time to write. Sorry to here about your living arrangements. It sucks when you are trying to find an apartment. Good luck. To quickly answer your questions. I'm an advocate for people with learning differences like dyslexia, ADD, ADHD, etc. I'm a tall guy, 6'4", with reddish brown hair.
So what DID the weekend bring for you? Good loven, I hope.
So what DID the weekend bring for you? Good loven, I hope.
tallredmann:
That's cool Talk to you later
Talk to you later I was excited to see that my advice letter I wrote a while back was picked and put up the other day. For those of you who haven't seen it, it was about the whole Seanna thing. She was a girl in my psych class last semester that I developed a little crush on. It's too bad that I never see her anymore; I'll have...
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tallredmann:
Hey, Iriseyes, live next door to you in Vermont. Did you read the book, Girl Interrupted, or just see the movie. I saw the movie, and I eventually plan to read the book. You like to check out girls bums, thats cool, but what about guys? Magic Condoms? Just wanted to say hi.
Just wanted to say hi.
tallredmann:
To bad about the boyfriend, but just the same, I hope he keeps you warm on cold winter nights But, being the Leo that you probably are, you tell him he better, or else. Stay warm, feel love all around you, and do the things that make you happy Write back
But, being the Leo that you probably are, you tell him he better, or else. Stay warm, feel love all around you, and do the things that make you happy Write back I wanted to share with all of you this poem I read in my British literature anthology:
Upon the Nipples of Julia's Breast
by Robert Herrick (sometime in the 17th century)
Have ye beheld (with much delight)
A red rose peeping through a white?
Or else a cherry (double graced)
Within a lily center-placed?
Or ever marked the pretty beam
A strawberry shows half drowned...
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Upon the Nipples of Julia's Breast
by Robert Herrick (sometime in the 17th century)
Have ye beheld (with much delight)
A red rose peeping through a white?
Or else a cherry (double graced)
Within a lily center-placed?
Or ever marked the pretty beam
A strawberry shows half drowned...
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morningbloom:
I'm a psych major, and I'll flirt with you....you might not have a crush on me, but I'll drop a flower on your desk
garnetdevine:
in the advice posts I found you.
My advice from my own experience is talk to her. Flirt with her. I have been there, except I knew I liked girls but I was at work when I met E. She was perfect in every part of the word. She would flirt with me but I would freak out and never say anything. Months and months later I told her about this (under the influence of beer) and she cornered me in a bathroom (she was also recently engaged) and again I freaked out and ran out of the bathroom. I missed my chance I blew it. all because i was shy and she was a co worker girl and the stigma attached to it. If it had been a herto situation at work I would have never hesitated.. but we worked in a super big company which is conservative and well.. I didn't want to ruin either of our careers. MISTAKE. do something about it so when your my age you don't regret not acting on it
If your feeling it that hard deal with the butterflies and go talk to her. Tell her you like her shoes.. for some reason it's been my best pick up line yet.
btw if i were in your class and you hit on me we'd be very busy all weekend on a "study date"
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[Edited on Jan 15, 2005 2:32AM]
My advice from my own experience is talk to her. Flirt with her. I have been there, except I knew I liked girls but I was at work when I met E. She was perfect in every part of the word. She would flirt with me but I would freak out and never say anything. Months and months later I told her about this (under the influence of beer) and she cornered me in a bathroom (she was also recently engaged) and again I freaked out and ran out of the bathroom. I missed my chance I blew it. all because i was shy and she was a co worker girl and the stigma attached to it. If it had been a herto situation at work I would have never hesitated.. but we worked in a super big company which is conservative and well.. I didn't want to ruin either of our careers. MISTAKE. do something about it so when your my age you don't regret not acting on it
If your feeling it that hard deal with the butterflies and go talk to her. Tell her you like her shoes.. for some reason it's been my best pick up line yet.
btw if i were in your class and you hit on me we'd be very busy all weekend on a "study date"
[Edited on Jan 15, 2005 2:32AM]
[Edited on Jan 15, 2005 2:32AM]
Not long after I left my little joking comment about the spyware/viruses on your computer being the result of you looking at porn, my own computer became infected with several spyware/virus programs as a result of my looking at porn.
Norton Anti-Virus found nothing wrong with the computer (I have an older version though). I then used a program called Webroot Spy-Sweeper to find and remove the problem. It worked. Three Trojan programs were deleted from my hard-drive...
However... Along with those programs went the rest of Windows. Somehow, Spy-Sweeper removed quite a few files that were vital to the proper operation of Windows XP. I could not get a single program to start. When I rebooted the computer, the system crashed before the log-on screen came up. I tried it several more times, and the same thing happened on every start-up.
I've tried several other repair options, and nothing is working. My computer is fucked. I'm going to have to reformat the hard-drive. All of my school files will be lost, as well as a large amount of music that I had downloaded.
Fucking porn-sites...
In case you're wondering, I'm using a friend's computer to type this... He told me not to look at any porn while I was using it.