I'm gonna make this very quick, as I still have the flu, and staring at this screen is killing me:
I always get reflective, sentimental, overly emotional and then totally gushy at new years, in that order. I'm now at sentimental, believe me, you don't wanna be around for the gushy, although whoever I stand next to as the ball drops usually gets the full force of it.
I never thought I'd be at a point where I actually felt like a mature, valuable human being, where I felt like I was achieving things however small, and mostly, where I was surrounded by so many amazing people who care about me. I feel so unbeliveably lucky, and whether or not I deserve to have everything and everyone that I have, I'm so happy and grateful that I do.
I got scared today because I suddenly thought 'what happens if nothing actually happens for me in 2007?'
I worry that January will pass by uneventfully and then the rest of the year will be the same. I then thought 'well, last January was nothing to write home about' but then I remembered that on the 4th I went to the pub feeling really down, Helen came in and told me she had a spare ticket for Disneyland. That was the Friday night and by the Sunday afternoon we were speaking French (albeit badly) and riding Space Mountain. And then the rest of the year followed on just as randomly as that.
So this is the end of a year which began with me prancing around a foreign themepark in the rain, having dinner with Disney characters and being proposed to my Mr Smee of Peter Pan fame - how is 2007 gonna top that? Eek.
I don't know but I've spent the past few weeks telling everyone how great 2007 is going to be and how they shouldn't worry about it, so I really should take my own advice.
Anyway, enough worrying about the future, it will take care of itself. Right now I'm going to revel in the last few hours of the year I finally got comfortable enough with who I was to stop apologising for it, the year I stopped needing drama to make life interesting, the year I was brave enough to actually be on my own and be perfectly okay, dance like nobody's watching (mainly because nobody will be watching) and just generally be excitable and happy. Woot!
'Does anybody remember back when you were very young. Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?'
- Brand New
I always get reflective, sentimental, overly emotional and then totally gushy at new years, in that order. I'm now at sentimental, believe me, you don't wanna be around for the gushy, although whoever I stand next to as the ball drops usually gets the full force of it.
I never thought I'd be at a point where I actually felt like a mature, valuable human being, where I felt like I was achieving things however small, and mostly, where I was surrounded by so many amazing people who care about me. I feel so unbeliveably lucky, and whether or not I deserve to have everything and everyone that I have, I'm so happy and grateful that I do.
I got scared today because I suddenly thought 'what happens if nothing actually happens for me in 2007?'
I worry that January will pass by uneventfully and then the rest of the year will be the same. I then thought 'well, last January was nothing to write home about' but then I remembered that on the 4th I went to the pub feeling really down, Helen came in and told me she had a spare ticket for Disneyland. That was the Friday night and by the Sunday afternoon we were speaking French (albeit badly) and riding Space Mountain. And then the rest of the year followed on just as randomly as that.
So this is the end of a year which began with me prancing around a foreign themepark in the rain, having dinner with Disney characters and being proposed to my Mr Smee of Peter Pan fame - how is 2007 gonna top that? Eek.
I don't know but I've spent the past few weeks telling everyone how great 2007 is going to be and how they shouldn't worry about it, so I really should take my own advice.
Anyway, enough worrying about the future, it will take care of itself. Right now I'm going to revel in the last few hours of the year I finally got comfortable enough with who I was to stop apologising for it, the year I stopped needing drama to make life interesting, the year I was brave enough to actually be on my own and be perfectly okay, dance like nobody's watching (mainly because nobody will be watching) and just generally be excitable and happy. Woot!
'Does anybody remember back when you were very young. Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?'
- Brand New
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i got them pierced on the 11th of december
with horrible nasty plastic bars
and i was sick of the ugly plasticness
so i plucked up the courage and i just changed them, they feel fine and the left one bled a tiny tiny bit but i was expecting blood anyway seeing as to me it seems a little early to be changing them but whatever ITS FINE. seriously.