irina

As if things hadn't gone far enough downhill... I didn't get the fulltime job. My life is now entirely lacking structure. Totally aimless. So lost. So depressed.

Everything was so PERFECT! Of course it was too good to be true. Why didn't I see this coming? Why am I still so optimistic, so trusting, so incredibly naive? I've known enough pain in my short 18 years - why haven't I learned the lessons yet? And why does it all have to be so dramatic? This feeling grips me so hard I have to work to breath.

Oh, and my glasses broke, too.

If you were here, would I sit and stare you down from across the table? Would I leave a red mark on your cheek in the shape of my palm? Would I make myself a stiff drink and cry in your arms? Would I kiss you for hours, pausing only to catch my breath? I really don't know what I'd do, but I wish you were here so we could find out.


Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go

There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be...

Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye ...


I just can't get things right.