iownrocknroll

so yah...hrm i never really bitched on here, but tonight this mornig, today whatever it is. i'm going to....so yah lately i've bene thinkin of my ex-girlfriend sarah, the only girl i ever gave a shit about, well she is engaged right now, to someone who use to be a friend of mine. god i miss her so much. i'm so sick of my life lately. i dropped out of college, i'm now considered as of september 19th to be one of the top chefs in the city. i'll be cooking this 250 a plate dinner for the american liver accosition in pittsburgh with the cities top chefs. guys who are like 50-60 years old. yah i'm 20....but all i want is her back. no wait this isn't true. her and to get my music carrer moving again. i'd give up this cookin shit for one or the other even. i guess she is happy now, but i just want to see her again, hang out, have a drink and catch up....blah i'm just sooo sick of this food shit, i mean today i had 200 people just in reservations from the hours of 5pm-10pm....plus my 100 plus people in walkins. i just can't keep workin from 8 in the morning till midnight 5 days a week. i dunno what the point of this is, but well i'm bitching. so there.