** Copied from my Facebook post which was written about a hour ago, I am disliking this confusing that seems to perpetuate itself with more confusion and endless thought patterns... **
Friday afternoon until the early hours of Saturday morning has been a very odd and in some ways really nice and in others leaving me feeling... scared, annoying and empty... but there are some feelings of comfort which some how blend in to all this.
I am really disliking the way I am talking right now. I feel I am trying to express my feelings on both other peoples experiences and understandings on their lives and opinions on existence in relation to 'personal' singular self level (which extends on to many many other places...). I would in no way say that what I am saying is valid nor structured...
I have had some amazing convosations tonight which have made me feel very [intangible feeling here] due to the hints of somewhat progress and at the same time big dislike if not hatred to my own words and what I have said.
I probably couldn't go on endlessly talking about things as I would class myself as lazy and always out to rush feelings and expressions and most activities that I do (which isn't going to aid me through this academic system... especially come dissertation time).
Blah - I feel happy, yet sad... comforted by others, yet feeling very much alone and isolated.
I must stop writing as... it's clearly contradictary and by the morning i will probably dislike these words even more, but I guess I am trying to portray a very minuet insight in to some of the expressions??? words??? feelings (how can words describe these chemical signals!)
and 
Sorry for such a spammy post. Please write about how your feeling if you feel that words can try to touch those processes....
Friday afternoon until the early hours of Saturday morning has been a very odd and in some ways really nice and in others leaving me feeling... scared, annoying and empty... but there are some feelings of comfort which some how blend in to all this.
I am really disliking the way I am talking right now. I feel I am trying to express my feelings on both other peoples experiences and understandings on their lives and opinions on existence in relation to 'personal' singular self level (which extends on to many many other places...). I would in no way say that what I am saying is valid nor structured...
I have had some amazing convosations tonight which have made me feel very [intangible feeling here] due to the hints of somewhat progress and at the same time big dislike if not hatred to my own words and what I have said.
I probably couldn't go on endlessly talking about things as I would class myself as lazy and always out to rush feelings and expressions and most activities that I do (which isn't going to aid me through this academic system... especially come dissertation time).
Blah - I feel happy, yet sad... comforted by others, yet feeling very much alone and isolated.
I must stop writing as... it's clearly contradictary and by the morning i will probably dislike these words even more, but I guess I am trying to portray a very minuet insight in to some of the expressions??? words??? feelings (how can words describe these chemical signals!)
and
Sorry for such a spammy post. Please write about how your feeling if you feel that words can try to touch those processes....