Okay. After taking a moment I have realized that blog was falling short. After a long absense I feel I should owe it to the community to write something with substance. I am doing this on my phone wwhich makes it mildly infuriating so I apologize in advance for the misspellings and weird grammar.
So after much unneeded bullshit and strife I finally grew the balls to end it with my ex. It was severely dysfunctional and we were an episode of cops waiting to happen. I realized I had been gripping at straws for months and months, I would say since the summer of '12. Its sad to say we are never well suited for each other.We merely stumbled unto each others lives and fumbled for decency (we failed) attempted to love (again, we failed) and then attempted to raise our child together.That was an epic fail. I realize I am in an incredibly good place with everything as I have no ill will towards him. Although if you knew the details you'd know I have every unbiased right to hold ill will towards him. But I won't. Instead I'll feel good about me. I'll fill myself with positivity and enlightenment. I have made the tough decision to raise my son completely alone. It was not something I took lightly. Its not the monetary aspect that bothers me most; I'm fairly good with money and seem to provide fairly well for my kids things they not only need but want as well. Its the loss of a father figure. Its the loss of unconditional and supportive and consistent love that bothers me. Although to be completely frank if it had ever been there in the first place things would be a lot different.
I have started looking to get back into school. This really really excites me. I've been feeling pretty stagnant about where I am, but I realize I have only myself to blame for this. I only have myself to get out of this hole I have thoroughly dug-and dug quite well.
WOOOOOOT.
So this past Saturday I hung out with my girl Lee. It was awwweressooome. We drank too much..laughed a lot..and I'm pretty sure I scared the shit out of the boy I like with some incredibly inappropriate behaviour. Not winning.
Annnnyyways lovelies..that is all for now. Be kind and love and have a beautiful day---spring is in the air!
Oh and follow me on instagram: dafinasuicide
Cheers lovelies
Daf.
So after much unneeded bullshit and strife I finally grew the balls to end it with my ex. It was severely dysfunctional and we were an episode of cops waiting to happen. I realized I had been gripping at straws for months and months, I would say since the summer of '12. Its sad to say we are never well suited for each other.We merely stumbled unto each others lives and fumbled for decency (we failed) attempted to love (again, we failed) and then attempted to raise our child together.That was an epic fail. I realize I am in an incredibly good place with everything as I have no ill will towards him. Although if you knew the details you'd know I have every unbiased right to hold ill will towards him. But I won't. Instead I'll feel good about me. I'll fill myself with positivity and enlightenment. I have made the tough decision to raise my son completely alone. It was not something I took lightly. Its not the monetary aspect that bothers me most; I'm fairly good with money and seem to provide fairly well for my kids things they not only need but want as well. Its the loss of a father figure. Its the loss of unconditional and supportive and consistent love that bothers me. Although to be completely frank if it had ever been there in the first place things would be a lot different.
I have started looking to get back into school. This really really excites me. I've been feeling pretty stagnant about where I am, but I realize I have only myself to blame for this. I only have myself to get out of this hole I have thoroughly dug-and dug quite well.
WOOOOOOT.
So this past Saturday I hung out with my girl Lee. It was awwweressooome. We drank too much..laughed a lot..and I'm pretty sure I scared the shit out of the boy I like with some incredibly inappropriate behaviour. Not winning.
Annnnyyways lovelies..that is all for now. Be kind and love and have a beautiful day---spring is in the air!
Oh and follow me on instagram: dafinasuicide
Cheers lovelies
Daf.
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We aren't going to wait that long again. Too much fun is just waiting to be had