inkedinaustin78

"i love you" is another way of saying...

i hope i never say those words again.
saying "i love you" is like saying "please hurt me."
Please DO rip out my heart, watch it beat, and then crush it when you walk away.
Yeah, I met a girl. She wasn't perfect, there were big problems. But i meant when i said "I love you."
and then she went away. Her dad died, her mom needed help. I drove her back and said goodbye.
I was hurting
she was hurting

and I've never seen her again.

I tried to move away and failed. she got kicked out of her mom's house.

but the thing is, I know that i know that i know deep down inside she has someone new.
the long silences with me, the gaps in what she tells me is going on.
and something about that kills me.
makes me feel easily replaced
for the guy who cooked her meals every night.
held her tight.
made her scream in exstacy.
am i so easy to replace?
are his words better? his touches more loving?

it's all wrong, i know i know i know
i should let her go. we had problems that would probably have doomed us anyways

and yet i hurt deep down to think someone else's hands are on her this very second, while i sleep on a cold floor.
and i hurt because i said these foolish words: "i love you"