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I dedicate this blog to one of my best friends! He passed away 2 years ago today. I miss him so much! I really hate drugs. If it wasnt for them he had lived today. But yeah I know that he have it a lot better now. With out all the pain and anxiety!!! I really wished your life hadnt turned out that way, and i really hope that this is not the way my sister life is going to end, I hope this treatment is going to turn out well for her. So much pain somedays. But I am happy. I love MY life. I just want it to be that way for everyone. Not just for some people.

This is for you Christian!

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream