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Something's really wrong, I'm not okay

Dec 1, 2014
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Something is really wrong. I can't remember anything. It doesn't matter if it's been a few hours or days I just don't remember stuff. I know I did things but if you tell me to describe what was said or what it looked like I just simply can't. I literally have a blank spot for anything more than a day old. It just isn't there.

And my head starts hurting really bad when I try hard to picture stuff. I end up crying because my head hurts really bad and I'm so sad and disturbed I can't remember.

I forget what my family looks like; if you ask me to describe how people I know look I simply can't.

My head is killing me, I can't touch my head without severe pain. I have leg pain like someone punched me repeatedly, I wake up in the middle of the night multiple times because of pain.

I feel like I'm losing myself and my mind. My life is just on auto-pilot and I forget everything immediately. It's so disturbing to realize that he past hours of the day you can't put into words or say what happened and what things felt like. It just isn't there. Then no way in fucking hell is it possible to describe something more than a day old. And the pain of trying to remember, god fuck it's so bad. I don't know what's wrong, I don't even know how I'll pass finals with having no memory.

I probably need a CT scan of my brain and to see a neurologist. Things aren't okay and the physical and emotional pain of having no memory is really hard to bear.

Send me pictures of yourself so I can remember you because I simply can't for the life of me describe how anyone looks or acts. I just forget everything and don't know if any memory will be permanent soon...

mredd6281:
I can actually relate to what you say on so many levels!
Dec 3, 2014

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