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full moon yesterday. Usual effects, anger rage, dealing with slow people who can't help me and get me even more of a furious raging panda bear. Freaked out in class because the teachers and tutors are fucking useless. They are artists and in thier words"i'm not a techie" then the fucking teacher doesn't know what we did ON THE FIRST FUCKING DAY!! he gave me a BROKEN project file. I was at school and didnt have my computer(we have to use macs and i FUCKING HATE macs!)

So then I had to go back home and RECREATE MY VIDEOS because i needed sound. I install a virtual machine of mac so i dont have to deal with that bullshit of not having my computer. God i FUCKING HATE quartz!!! it's a fucktarded GUI programming with a fucktarded spider web of bullshit instead of adding a effect and using a panel. FUCK THAT PROGRAM!!!

The full moon didnt help matters and i had to take a heavy duty med to calm me the fuck down. I had a cigarette in the full moon light and started getting amped and going crazy. I just wanted to go to bed and not deal with bullshit. I love the full moon, but if i have to deal with COMPLETE FUCKING IDIOTS the full moon works against me.

Conversely the new moon gives me a sense of renewal and time for change. Does anyone else think like this?





~panda