Hey SG land!
Oh what a week it has been! School started finally, and my classes are really fun-not boring at all. My martial art class is my favorite and the guys in there are really chill. I love it sooooo much fun. I pass out in my journalism course, boring as fuck haha! I watched Modern Times by charlie Chaplin in film and it was great. Charlie Chaplin is just an amazing man and his movies and vision was absolutely brilliant. I also audition for Duck TV; I had so much fun!
The funny thing was it was all super serious like, bring a script or do a cold read, bring your portfolio etc. I was like Fuck it Im charlie! And they were eating out of the palm of my hands it fucking amazing I loved it!
After that I had a BIG crash emotionally for 2 days. It was horrible and just really depressing.
But then I bounced back and went out to Rennies just so I could get a night out and not mope around the house. I met some great dudes there the first night, I was just screaming charlie lines all night-we even hung out the next day(a rarity for me)! A good guy from a bar said that it was really good Ive changed and have a new persona, it meant a lot. 
The next night(yesterday) was definitely one of the best nights Ive had here. I met two lovely ladies named Kai and Cassie. They fell in love with me, I showed them all my tattoos(lifting my shirt all the way up on both sides) and they were simply astonished by my tattoos. I talked about what Ive said about in my previous blogs-maturity, sobriety, friend-zoning, energy levels-pretty much my life in a nutshell with all my moral and values. We had such an amazing time, they both gave me a nice kiss on the lips(which took my by surprise)! I told them in the beginning Im into alternative beauty(didnt know if I should say SG) and then I actually told them about SG and they freaked out! They love those girls and are a fan on facebook and it was amazing.
I told them my feelings of looking at sets about how I can't look at these girl in a sexual way at all-i appreciate them, their life and what they stand for. They fell in love with me even more. They told me I'm a rarity and I treat people like people and give a shit about everything about a person with no expectation and they felt so comfortable yet weird about meeting a guy like me. The lovely Kai was so adorable-she kept saying Im sorry for every action she did and was talking about her boyfriend and her woes of their relationship. I said to her I dont want to break up you two, but by the fact you felt something so great with me versus your boyfriend is just truly sad you dont feel this way always. 
I then told her about Devon. I never really talk about Devon(i talk about hannah more so if anything). To me the subject of Devon is quite personal. I never knew why she suddenly did I 180* and freaked out at me. Based on the notes she sent me in response to letters that freaked her out and we never talked again. She caused me a bunch of unnecessary drama and shit to which I always tell people, You don't fuck with me-you can fuck with me for a little while Ill give them that, but when Ive had enough shit you will regret the day you got on my bad side. The thing is I dont know if I was in love with Devon or the *idea* of Devon. I always say we had no expectations of each-other how we just felt so raw experiencing life together and we were best friends and boyfriend & girlfriend. But I never knew which really. My aunt always say there are two types of people in this world-givers and takers. I'm wholly a giver with everything I do, Devon on the other hand, I never knew honestly. We saw each-other so briefly. But in the end I guess I was in love, truly in love from the moment we first met, with the idea of Devon but not Devon herself. It hurts to think about, but it makes me realize that when I finally get a girlfriend how I will give everything and the world to her. And girl's are simply astonished by this, like they have never had a guy give them what I give to people, but especially a girlfriend.
I told Kai after hearing her act like I was just so astonishing as a person that (screaming) how the fuck has no one treated you like this!!?!?! She was just adorable in her response but in all honestly it made me truly sad for her. She deserves a lot better. I told her you can't work at love-it is either there right in the beginning or it isn't. And then I talked to her more about Devon and she was just simply awe-struck that someone treats a woman like that. I don't want to steal her, I can't even bear the thought of her cheating on her boyfriend with me-but the fact I made her feel something special versus her boyfriend for a year makes me want to give her what she truly deserves. But I friend-zoned her, so that is where we begin. I saw her energy level and how she was looking at me, and right then I could tell I was in love with her, as a person, friend, and her feelings of life, people, and her identity as a woman. Hopefully we will grow closer and develop a great long lasting friendship. Like I said with Devon, I want her to be one of my best friends.
Cassie was an amazing girl, totally down to earth and loved everything about me. She loved the same anime as I do, the same favorite video game(kingdom hearts) and we laughed and joke she is just an amazing girl. I hope with her as-well we will develop and great long-lasting friendship. They invited me to an anime convention and hopefully Ill get to go.
So life is going grand, Im going to the rock-climbing club tomorrow which will be a ton of fun.
Hope everyone in SG is having a great a life as I have been having in just a week!
~Panda
Oh what a week it has been! School started finally, and my classes are really fun-not boring at all. My martial art class is my favorite and the guys in there are really chill. I love it sooooo much fun. I pass out in my journalism course, boring as fuck haha! I watched Modern Times by charlie Chaplin in film and it was great. Charlie Chaplin is just an amazing man and his movies and vision was absolutely brilliant. I also audition for Duck TV; I had so much fun!
The funny thing was it was all super serious like, bring a script or do a cold read, bring your portfolio etc. I was like Fuck it Im charlie! And they were eating out of the palm of my hands it fucking amazing I loved it! After that I had a BIG crash emotionally for 2 days. It was horrible and just really depressing.
But then I bounced back and went out to Rennies just so I could get a night out and not mope around the house. I met some great dudes there the first night, I was just screaming charlie lines all night-we even hung out the next day(a rarity for me)! A good guy from a bar said that it was really good Ive changed and have a new persona, it meant a lot. The next night(yesterday) was definitely one of the best nights Ive had here. I met two lovely ladies named Kai and Cassie. They fell in love with me, I showed them all my tattoos(lifting my shirt all the way up on both sides) and they were simply astonished by my tattoos. I talked about what Ive said about in my previous blogs-maturity, sobriety, friend-zoning, energy levels-pretty much my life in a nutshell with all my moral and values. We had such an amazing time, they both gave me a nice kiss on the lips(which took my by surprise)! I told them in the beginning Im into alternative beauty(didnt know if I should say SG) and then I actually told them about SG and they freaked out! They love those girls and are a fan on facebook and it was amazing.
I told them my feelings of looking at sets about how I can't look at these girl in a sexual way at all-i appreciate them, their life and what they stand for. They fell in love with me even more. They told me I'm a rarity and I treat people like people and give a shit about everything about a person with no expectation and they felt so comfortable yet weird about meeting a guy like me. The lovely Kai was so adorable-she kept saying Im sorry for every action she did and was talking about her boyfriend and her woes of their relationship. I said to her I dont want to break up you two, but by the fact you felt something so great with me versus your boyfriend is just truly sad you dont feel this way always. I then told her about Devon. I never really talk about Devon(i talk about hannah more so if anything). To me the subject of Devon is quite personal. I never knew why she suddenly did I 180* and freaked out at me. Based on the notes she sent me in response to letters that freaked her out and we never talked again. She caused me a bunch of unnecessary drama and shit to which I always tell people, You don't fuck with me-you can fuck with me for a little while Ill give them that, but when Ive had enough shit you will regret the day you got on my bad side. The thing is I dont know if I was in love with Devon or the *idea* of Devon. I always say we had no expectations of each-other how we just felt so raw experiencing life together and we were best friends and boyfriend & girlfriend. But I never knew which really. My aunt always say there are two types of people in this world-givers and takers. I'm wholly a giver with everything I do, Devon on the other hand, I never knew honestly. We saw each-other so briefly. But in the end I guess I was in love, truly in love from the moment we first met, with the idea of Devon but not Devon herself. It hurts to think about, but it makes me realize that when I finally get a girlfriend how I will give everything and the world to her. And girl's are simply astonished by this, like they have never had a guy give them what I give to people, but especially a girlfriend.
I told Kai after hearing her act like I was just so astonishing as a person that (screaming) how the fuck has no one treated you like this!!?!?! She was just adorable in her response but in all honestly it made me truly sad for her. She deserves a lot better. I told her you can't work at love-it is either there right in the beginning or it isn't. And then I talked to her more about Devon and she was just simply awe-struck that someone treats a woman like that. I don't want to steal her, I can't even bear the thought of her cheating on her boyfriend with me-but the fact I made her feel something special versus her boyfriend for a year makes me want to give her what she truly deserves. But I friend-zoned her, so that is where we begin. I saw her energy level and how she was looking at me, and right then I could tell I was in love with her, as a person, friend, and her feelings of life, people, and her identity as a woman. Hopefully we will grow closer and develop a great long lasting friendship. Like I said with Devon, I want her to be one of my best friends.
Cassie was an amazing girl, totally down to earth and loved everything about me. She loved the same anime as I do, the same favorite video game(kingdom hearts) and we laughed and joke she is just an amazing girl. I hope with her as-well we will develop and great long-lasting friendship. They invited me to an anime convention and hopefully Ill get to go.
So life is going grand, Im going to the rock-climbing club tomorrow which will be a ton of fun.
Hope everyone in SG is having a great a life as I have been having in just a week!
~Panda