I need to bring up a HUGE point in my life.
My back tattoo is the starting point.
Life is way too short. No one grants you tomorrow. This has made me push myself out of a negative life into a new one full of new opportunities ad experiences. It means that there is no reason to not try something, to get away from a damaging comfort-zone. Getting away form all the negative crao; and people say i'm trying but until they make the conscious decision to get rid of it is the only way that it can truly happen. Most people don't make the conscious decision, they just "try to get better." The only limit to your life is your own head trying to get out of uncomfortble situations. The thing is is that it will ALWAYS be uncomfortable if you never try it. You will be stuck in a bubble that is self-damaging and preventing you from seeking all the experiences the world has to offer. When I go out everyday of my life, I don't give a fuck what others think;their looks on me are them wishing they could have the audacity that I have. People go into new situations and immediately feel judging eyes like they can see everytihng about you, your issues, and what ever irrational thought process is driving the insecurity to be infornt of people. Say fuck them, it's my life, and I will fuck shit up daily, saying fuck social norms and doing it in a way that makes people see that I am not afraid to do whatever the fuck I want. That's not to say I'm reckless and obnoxious, I'm a smart fucking guy; everything is already planned, a day ahead, week, fuck even 5 minutes I know what I am getting into and how to get out of it if the situation should turn awry. That's why everyone depends on me, because nothing in this world can phase me, people come to me for self harm, rape, eating disorders, drug use, drinking, every possible issue on the planet I can handle it. I may not know the individual thought-process, but I understand the pain of it. Thinking, "Can anyone help me? would they even understand? they'd think me a freak..I don't even know what I'd do without it in my life.." I know it all too well, and that's why i connect with people so well.
second issue: GAME UP!
game up means "quit your bitching and do it!" Yeah it can come off as an asshole but it has a much deeper meaning. Like my back tattoo, why the fuck shouldn't we try new things, get way the fuck out of our self-damaging comfort-zone and just live! I tell people to game up all aspects of their life, I really do want people to experience the world the way I do, and yes it may b a personality trait, but that's why I would be there with them side by side together having an awesome adventure! My sole responsibility is to see their red-flags, read their body language, and monitor their experience to ensure they do not get into a panic zone and return deeper into their comfort-zone. People don't realize that that is what I am actually doing when I am full-body deep in gaming up. They just see it as me being an asshole telling them to game up when they don't realize it is solely for them with my ever-watching eyes upon the entirety of the situation. So all the introverts I know who get pissed off because I'm exploring life and "moving on from them" quit being jealous(yes deep down it is jealousy as to why you can't achieve the same awesomeness level that I push out effortlessly daily) and bitching about how life is so easy for me. I've been through hell multiple times over to get to the point where I am now. Like I said, I know their pain, but they have to make the conscious decision to move past it; then and ONLY THEN can we start experiencing the world. So when I invite you out to an adventure, even just outside (I LOVE being outside!) and lecture you how to game up it's because everyone else is walking on egg-shells and pussy-footing around saying things that can upset you so you are STILL IN THE BUBBLE! Real friends are honest and blunt and no one is used to direct communication which they feel is an attack on their whole person.
GAME THE FUCK UP and MAKE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION to MOVE PAST the NEGATIVE SHIT into a LIFE OF NEW EXPERIENCES THAT CAN SHAPE YOU INTO A WHOLE NEW PERSON!!!!!!
otherwise don't bitch about me moving past you. The only thing constant in this world is change, whether you change or not, everyone does around you. People will notice you aren't and they will ditch you.
I am just sick an tired of introverts(which I was for a VERY INTENSE period of my life) who bitch and try and guilt trip you by saying that I am "moving on" and "life is so easy for you" and "you can function". it took me 7 years of cutting, 2 years of cocaine and alcohol and other shit THEN REHAB FOR THREE 1/2 YEARS to finally realize I can do whatever the fuck I want, I just need to GAME UP because everyday you are dying; so fucking do all you can!
My back tattoo is the starting point.
Life is way too short. No one grants you tomorrow. This has made me push myself out of a negative life into a new one full of new opportunities ad experiences. It means that there is no reason to not try something, to get away from a damaging comfort-zone. Getting away form all the negative crao; and people say i'm trying but until they make the conscious decision to get rid of it is the only way that it can truly happen. Most people don't make the conscious decision, they just "try to get better." The only limit to your life is your own head trying to get out of uncomfortble situations. The thing is is that it will ALWAYS be uncomfortable if you never try it. You will be stuck in a bubble that is self-damaging and preventing you from seeking all the experiences the world has to offer. When I go out everyday of my life, I don't give a fuck what others think;their looks on me are them wishing they could have the audacity that I have. People go into new situations and immediately feel judging eyes like they can see everytihng about you, your issues, and what ever irrational thought process is driving the insecurity to be infornt of people. Say fuck them, it's my life, and I will fuck shit up daily, saying fuck social norms and doing it in a way that makes people see that I am not afraid to do whatever the fuck I want. That's not to say I'm reckless and obnoxious, I'm a smart fucking guy; everything is already planned, a day ahead, week, fuck even 5 minutes I know what I am getting into and how to get out of it if the situation should turn awry. That's why everyone depends on me, because nothing in this world can phase me, people come to me for self harm, rape, eating disorders, drug use, drinking, every possible issue on the planet I can handle it. I may not know the individual thought-process, but I understand the pain of it. Thinking, "Can anyone help me? would they even understand? they'd think me a freak..I don't even know what I'd do without it in my life.." I know it all too well, and that's why i connect with people so well.
second issue: GAME UP!
game up means "quit your bitching and do it!" Yeah it can come off as an asshole but it has a much deeper meaning. Like my back tattoo, why the fuck shouldn't we try new things, get way the fuck out of our self-damaging comfort-zone and just live! I tell people to game up all aspects of their life, I really do want people to experience the world the way I do, and yes it may b a personality trait, but that's why I would be there with them side by side together having an awesome adventure! My sole responsibility is to see their red-flags, read their body language, and monitor their experience to ensure they do not get into a panic zone and return deeper into their comfort-zone. People don't realize that that is what I am actually doing when I am full-body deep in gaming up. They just see it as me being an asshole telling them to game up when they don't realize it is solely for them with my ever-watching eyes upon the entirety of the situation. So all the introverts I know who get pissed off because I'm exploring life and "moving on from them" quit being jealous(yes deep down it is jealousy as to why you can't achieve the same awesomeness level that I push out effortlessly daily) and bitching about how life is so easy for me. I've been through hell multiple times over to get to the point where I am now. Like I said, I know their pain, but they have to make the conscious decision to move past it; then and ONLY THEN can we start experiencing the world. So when I invite you out to an adventure, even just outside (I LOVE being outside!) and lecture you how to game up it's because everyone else is walking on egg-shells and pussy-footing around saying things that can upset you so you are STILL IN THE BUBBLE! Real friends are honest and blunt and no one is used to direct communication which they feel is an attack on their whole person.
GAME THE FUCK UP and MAKE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION to MOVE PAST the NEGATIVE SHIT into a LIFE OF NEW EXPERIENCES THAT CAN SHAPE YOU INTO A WHOLE NEW PERSON!!!!!!
otherwise don't bitch about me moving past you. The only thing constant in this world is change, whether you change or not, everyone does around you. People will notice you aren't and they will ditch you.
I am just sick an tired of introverts(which I was for a VERY INTENSE period of my life) who bitch and try and guilt trip you by saying that I am "moving on" and "life is so easy for you" and "you can function". it took me 7 years of cutting, 2 years of cocaine and alcohol and other shit THEN REHAB FOR THREE 1/2 YEARS to finally realize I can do whatever the fuck I want, I just need to GAME UP because everyday you are dying; so fucking do all you can!