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Hubby and I went to the "Night of the Butterflies" exhibit at the local botanical gardens on Monday evening and it was spectacular. The annual butterfly exhibit runs from the next two months. Through out the Victorian tea garden and the jungle conservatory are thousands of rare butterflies that they have grown and released into the gardens. My personal favorite being the stunningly beautiful Common Morpho. That butterfly, while I didn't get to photograph it Monday is a mindblowing blue butterfly. But, have no fear, I will be returning to the exhibit at least four times over the course of the next 2 months to capture it on camera.


Little did I know the similariites of how the burrtflies wings flutter and beat would soon match my own heart. For the first time, in a very long time, I will be sitting in front of someone else's camera come Saturday. A photoshoot set up for Kirin has become a photoshoot for myself as well. I have recently found happiness behind the camera, taking pictures of other's, out of a severe lack of self confidence of my own.


It's been a very long time since I thought I was beautiful enough to have photos done of me, in spite of the lovely words my husband utters daily, and honestly- I think I an scared to death of modeling again- especially so soon. The end of the week is looming closer and closer as the minutes tick away.


But Kirin assures me I am "pretty" enough to have this done, and she will be there to help me along with this. Wish me luck- I might just need it