inkaholik

im not sure where im headed in life.... i have been really in my own little world so it seems. completely shutting out my girlfriend and really just partying it up with my friends and doing my own little thing with them. im not sure but i need to try to be more sympathetic towards her and spend some quality time. monday was pretty good for us. first time in quite awhile we did not argue or fight. had a bbq invited friends and had family and friends over. had beer and etc. but it was pretty awesome, my buddies band (who by the way will be in the fresno and bakersfield area june 13-14 for a couple shows. be sure to check them out. myspace.com/theillegaldead.) ill be down there that weekend if anyone wants to hang out we will also be having afterparties and what not so hit me up.

anywho my second job SHOULD be calling me soon with a start date. but i really dont want to have TWO jobs i just wish i had one well paying job. im sick of my job at the assisted living place everyone there is backstabbing. and i make shitty pay for what i do.

usually february and may are the worse months for me for one february is when my dad passed away and may is his birthday. so you can imagine the emotions running thru my household at the moment. friday is his birthday and the past few days ive been thinking more and more about him. its been two years this past february. he had liver, lung cancer that had spread to his bones. started from smoking. but its all bad. been depressed as shit lately and i think thats why ive been out partying with friends and drinking bc ive been trying to get over this month. hmmm anyways i try to stay positive. hopefully things will turn around soon...