injuredcyclist

the colonoscopy found nothing. not even anything to biopsy. my doctor doesnt know whats going on. ive been sick for more than three months.

everyone i know is now a fucking doctor. its one of the most aggravating things going on right now. i dont want to talk about it to anyone because i get their individual theory on what it might be. i was...
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good news and bad news today.

good news: my guitar came. bonus is that it came and someone was around to sign for it, saving me a trip to the bronx tomorrow night.

bad news: i made another appointment to the doctor about my stomach. i guess this is good news, but the appointment was for a colonoscopy (one more procedure im having about 25...
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im getting what ive wanted for two years at work. now all i have to do is not fuck it up.

im calling my doctor again tomorrow. every time i eat my intestines feel like ive swallowed some inflated ziplock bags. the next round of testing will be, um, uncomfortable.

i picked up the amp and some other odd bits for my guitar today from...
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fuckin wow sucked me back in. id been away for probably five months. not much better to do as i sit around waiting for my guitar to arrive and for my body to stop being stupid. back to leveling my be pally and maybe healing again on my priest.

i was right when i started calling it bubble guts. ha!

im starting to feel better thanks to a real diagnosis and another kind of pill. at the same time, mentally, not so much. i dunno. as my body mends the part of me that wants to tear the legs off of other cyclists and fly down the road begins to manifest itself again. i...
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i thought i was getting better. honestly thought my stomach was finally starting to heal up. i was so fucking wrong. going on two months. any faith i once had in body is gone.

beginning to think a lot of my ills are because of how stressed i am about work and the uncertainty of my current position. i just cant seem to completely relax, and its made worse by the fact that i dont really trust my body right now. after being broken for a while, a part of me has a hard time mentally believing that im...
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medication for the bacterial infection and ulcer didnt work. two weeks worth of 8 pills a day, 3000mg of antibiotic and my guts shrugged it all off. tightness and gurgling are just as bad as they were before. its been six weeks and my stomach still isnt normal. so so tired of it. calling the doctor on monday, hopefully get new pills the same day....
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i fell asleep earlier and woke up when my drunk upstairs neighbor came home. with the hardwood floors in our house, i hear every step she makes when shes not barefoot. i can also hear her bed when shes having sex, which is bothersome.

i also cant seem to get back to sleep, and im not sure what to do with myself. honestly, after today,...
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really pissed off at how things are going, and desperately trying not to let it show. only a couple people in the world need to know whats going on in my head right now.