drunk! hehe. in contrast to previous drunkenness, im not sad or pissed off. been watching improv everywhere videos on youtube. my roommate showed me the star wars video a couple hours ago (which was awesome) and ive been watching others ever since.
i feel noticeably stronger on the bike. went for a ride yesterday and the speed was pretty damn good, in spite of the fact that stop lights are being enforced by parks and rec police in central park. went to my bike shop today hoping to get a wheel trued and even going back and forth up and down 2nd and 3rd i noticed i was faster and stronger. looking forward to this weekend, when ill head back out of town.
this will sound stupid, but i feel like i was born to ride a bike. nothing clears my head like a long ride. i feel confident and powerful when i ride, a feeling i rarely have when im not riding. i dont have the physical gifts to ride professionally, but maybe with another summer in my legs i can ride quick centuries. given that i starved myself over the fall and winter because of stomach problems, i almost feel like the conditioning i gained last year doesnt count. much better this year. i keep buying lottery tickets. maybe ill get lucky and ill be able to ride for the rest of my days without having to worry about money.
thats another idea that sounds stupid i suppose. out of work, with no good news to report in the job hunt, i buy lottery tickets a couple times a week. gives me a little hope. maybe ill get my loans to disappear. maybe something extraordinary will happen, and ill be able, for the first time, to live as though money doesnt matter. id take care of my best friend from college for life, id pay off my roommate's student loans, id give 5 million to michigan state, and id take care of my immediate family. id move back to san francisco and spend all my time riding (on a brand new roubaix sl3) and volunteering. i know its a pipe dream, but honestly, whatever gets you through the night.
anyway. still missing the stars and home.
night all.
i feel noticeably stronger on the bike. went for a ride yesterday and the speed was pretty damn good, in spite of the fact that stop lights are being enforced by parks and rec police in central park. went to my bike shop today hoping to get a wheel trued and even going back and forth up and down 2nd and 3rd i noticed i was faster and stronger. looking forward to this weekend, when ill head back out of town.
this will sound stupid, but i feel like i was born to ride a bike. nothing clears my head like a long ride. i feel confident and powerful when i ride, a feeling i rarely have when im not riding. i dont have the physical gifts to ride professionally, but maybe with another summer in my legs i can ride quick centuries. given that i starved myself over the fall and winter because of stomach problems, i almost feel like the conditioning i gained last year doesnt count. much better this year. i keep buying lottery tickets. maybe ill get lucky and ill be able to ride for the rest of my days without having to worry about money.
thats another idea that sounds stupid i suppose. out of work, with no good news to report in the job hunt, i buy lottery tickets a couple times a week. gives me a little hope. maybe ill get my loans to disappear. maybe something extraordinary will happen, and ill be able, for the first time, to live as though money doesnt matter. id take care of my best friend from college for life, id pay off my roommate's student loans, id give 5 million to michigan state, and id take care of my immediate family. id move back to san francisco and spend all my time riding (on a brand new roubaix sl3) and volunteering. i know its a pipe dream, but honestly, whatever gets you through the night.
anyway. still missing the stars and home.
night all.