injuredcyclist

just saw that dates have been set for the outside lands music fest in san francisco. fuck i miss that city. i dont regret moving to new york, but i feel like i was just a few months away from life getting really good there. the fact that i miss it as much as i do still tells me i havent fully settled into living in new york, even though its been a year and half. might have to go back and work out of the sf office for a week so i can go. be lovely to ride in northern california that time of year too, especially when i know how fuckin hot it will be in new york in the middle of august.

still convinced that ill love new york and my life will improve once i start cycling with one of the clubs in the city. outside of music and that guitar that stares at me every night that i still havent learned to play, cycling is what i enjoy doing most. biggest barrier to that happening right now is the fact that i need another professional bike fit. i rode yesterday for barely 20 miles and my knees are telling me about it today. and proxy season needs to end. badly.

lonely and tired. lots of things feeding into moods that arent positive right now. plus side is im eating better than i have in forever and i feel pretty good, knees aside.

convinced as always that things happen for a reason, and that im just a couple of steps away from life being what ive always thought it should be.

night.