injuredcyclist

the colonoscopy found nothing. not even anything to biopsy. my doctor doesnt know whats going on. ive been sick for more than three months.

everyone i know is now a fucking doctor. its one of the most aggravating things going on right now. i dont want to talk about it to anyone because i get their individual theory on what it might be. i was fine three months ago, i all of the sudden wasnt, there has to be a solid reason why. leave me the hell alone.

im playing a lot of wow right now since i barely leave my house because of all this. brought my priest out of retirement and the pally hit 80 and has started running heroics.

my fingers are still adjusting to my guitar. turns out my hands are very weak. i think the smallness of my hands makes starting out more difficult.

i blew a spoke friday riding home and bent the rim so bad i had to catch a cab the rest of the way. more money i really dont have to get that replaces and trued.

busy as hell at work, and theres a lot of office politics going on. makes the workload more difficult to handle. everyone is super overworked and stressed. not looking forward to a conversation tomorrow. started the early shift too, 6am to 3pm. i didnt leave before 5 last week.

i cant seem to make life better right now. its distressing. the lack of support is growing tiresome too. have made very few friends and i have no family within 1500 miles. im wearing out, mentally and physically. how long can you carry around weight like this alone before you stumble and fall?