waiting. i hate waiting. im absolutely no good at it. patience is the one thing, especially when it comes to hearing back about jobs, that im terrible at. my history of going 2-3 months before finding new work doesnt help. i cant afford to have that happen this time. if it does, it means i move back home, an action that would be an admission of defeat on my part in a way.
im a little bitter, theres no denying. i worked hard, worked the long hours with little complaint, worked well, and have had all the people that should have made the hiring decisions tell me that i got screwed by the vp when the offers were made. when you do everything right, and you hear things like that over and over, one wonders why instead of being on the 33rd floor of that building downtown, im sitting in my room smoking a cigarette wondering what happened.
i interviewed last week at that company for a position that would be a 3 month extension of the contract i had, doing excel work. the money would be the same, which means that without all the overtime i worked the last three months that i would take home enough money to pay rent and my student loans, and basically nothing else. i would buy food using the extra money ive managed to stash away. id take it in a heartbeat, because it would be money coming in. the underlying hope would be that when management came to their fucking senses and decided to hire one or two quality people to correct their earlier mistake, id be the most obvious choice. thats the hope. i should know by thursday at the latest.
i also wait on a couple of other companies. the ideal job, besides going back to what ive been doing, would be an analyst position for a wind company that has an office downtown. i think im qualified for it. id be working in a job that completely fit with what i majored it. if that job was offered, id be very very happy. the others are analyst jobs that have a good chance of being interesting and would pay my bills. well see.
little to do right now but try and not dwell on what has happened, and tailor the occasional cover letter. play warcraft and try to not become despondent, essentially. my fingers are crossed, im praying, all that. i need work that will pay what i need. im nervous. i hate this.
i wait.
im a little bitter, theres no denying. i worked hard, worked the long hours with little complaint, worked well, and have had all the people that should have made the hiring decisions tell me that i got screwed by the vp when the offers were made. when you do everything right, and you hear things like that over and over, one wonders why instead of being on the 33rd floor of that building downtown, im sitting in my room smoking a cigarette wondering what happened.
i interviewed last week at that company for a position that would be a 3 month extension of the contract i had, doing excel work. the money would be the same, which means that without all the overtime i worked the last three months that i would take home enough money to pay rent and my student loans, and basically nothing else. i would buy food using the extra money ive managed to stash away. id take it in a heartbeat, because it would be money coming in. the underlying hope would be that when management came to their fucking senses and decided to hire one or two quality people to correct their earlier mistake, id be the most obvious choice. thats the hope. i should know by thursday at the latest.
i also wait on a couple of other companies. the ideal job, besides going back to what ive been doing, would be an analyst position for a wind company that has an office downtown. i think im qualified for it. id be working in a job that completely fit with what i majored it. if that job was offered, id be very very happy. the others are analyst jobs that have a good chance of being interesting and would pay my bills. well see.
little to do right now but try and not dwell on what has happened, and tailor the occasional cover letter. play warcraft and try to not become despondent, essentially. my fingers are crossed, im praying, all that. i need work that will pay what i need. im nervous. i hate this.
i wait.