injuredcyclist

i was right when i started calling it bubble guts. ha!

im starting to feel better thanks to a real diagnosis and another kind of pill. at the same time, mentally, not so much. i dunno. as my body mends the part of me that wants to tear the legs off of other cyclists and fly down the road begins to manifest itself again. i...
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i thought i was getting better. honestly thought my stomach was finally starting to heal up. i was so fucking wrong. going on two months. any faith i once had in body is gone.

beginning to think a lot of my ills are because of how stressed i am about work and the uncertainty of my current position. i just cant seem to completely relax, and its made worse by the fact that i dont really trust my body right now. after being broken for a while, a part of me has a hard time mentally believing that im...
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medication for the bacterial infection and ulcer didnt work. two weeks worth of 8 pills a day, 3000mg of antibiotic and my guts shrugged it all off. tightness and gurgling are just as bad as they were before. its been six weeks and my stomach still isnt normal. so so tired of it. calling the doctor on monday, hopefully get new pills the same day....
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i fell asleep earlier and woke up when my drunk upstairs neighbor came home. with the hardwood floors in our house, i hear every step she makes when shes not barefoot. i can also hear her bed when shes having sex, which is bothersome.

i also cant seem to get back to sleep, and im not sure what to do with myself. honestly, after today,...
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really pissed off at how things are going, and desperately trying not to let it show. only a couple people in the world need to know whats going on in my head right now.

kinda tired of seeing the same lines from a year ago every time i click my profile.

i moved to new york last november, via a five day drive alone in a uhaul with all my stuff. though i have yet to make barely any friends, i have made more habit changes in the last 10 months than i have probably ever. quit smoking, bought...
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im moving. ill be in new york before christmas.

i had a conversation today with one of our sales guys that was in the office, visiting from maine. our soon to be opened new york office was brought up, and i mentioned a passing interest in transfering out there. he encouraged me to, and gave me a couple reasons why. this happened at 9am this morning. ive been thinking about it almost nonstop ever...
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this weekend was a complete bust. everything i wanted to do or was going to do this weekend i either fucked up or cant.

i dont know what the hell it is or how it got there, but i have a bump on the back of my neck just right of my spine. been there for a while, but the last couple of days it seems as though its grown and started to hurt. feels like theres a marble under my skin. put off seeing the doctor today to...
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