infinitelykaty

Jeremy: I have a photographic memory, but sometimes I think the pictures switch albums.
Me: Yeah, I get a few double exposures in mine.
Jeremy: haha...Exactly.

I'm going to shake this up again.
Hi, I'm Katy, and I've figured out what that means.
Saturday was pretty much a total waste up until 9, that's when Jeremy called me pretending to be Dan. Of course I knew it was him. They invited me to hang out with them, and I was so thankful for that.
We went to the Tea Garden for, what else, tea. We sat down by the fish tank and tried to figure out their underwater conversations (the fish were obviously talking to each other). We played with Legos.
Moi: Alright, the best I can do is this guy sitting on a toilet wearing red pants.
Jeremy: Dude, it's Michael Jackson, because he's black and white. It's Michael Jackson sitting on a toilet wearing Thriller pants!
Myself: I am a Lego genius.
Through smooth talk with the girl who was working, we convinced her to let us come perform music any time she is there. They're trying to start an open mic night, and I told her with as many people as we know in this god damn town, we could pack the place.
Oh yeah, I've had a few days build up to my great epiphany. Jeremy and I were talking about it last night, how we've both been through a lot of hard things in recent months, and we seem to have both reached a really positive conclusion to it all at the same time. Maybe the experiences were different, but we're in the same place now, and we're going to move forward together.
We've talked about making music together for a while. It feels like the time is now. We're both ready. He played this documentary about Ben Harper for me and Dan. I never listened to Ben Harper before, but I went out today and bought three of his albums. Not kidding. I was that inspired by him.
It reminded me that music is what I want to do. I live for music. I can't imagine doing anything else.
It's going to happen. Earlier this week, I got this feeling. I don't know how to describe it other than a soul swelling. I just felt full, and complete, and like I'd finally found whatever this thing is I've been looking for inside of myself.
Everything I need is here.
Ben described the exact same feeling in his documentary. He said that's how he knows it's time to make music. Rock on.
I've been distracted from my mission. Jeremy reminded me of it last night. Heh...it was...awesome. We're totally on the same wave-length. I remember sitting next to him on the couch, trying to explain to Dan what we want to do and we were finishing each other's sentences. He'd get a thought started, and I would finish it, and he would be pointing at me like "Listen to her!"
My life is going to be fucking amazing.
I've got things to do. I'll leave you with this, one of my new favorite songs:

Make me feel like a beggar
Make me feel like a thief
Make me feel like a battle, that cannot end in peace
Make me feel like running, as if I've lost my nerve
Make me feel like crying, tears I don't deserve

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb
I am numb
I am numb

Is this really living, sometimes it's hard to tell
Or is this just a kinder gentler hell
Turn out the lights
And let me stare into your soul
I was born and bled for you to hold

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb
I am numb
I am numb

Never said thank you
Never said please
Never gave reason to believe
So as it stands
I remain on my knees
Good lovers make great enemies

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb
I am numb
I am numb

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am numb
I am numb
I am numb

I feel Ben on that shit...