indie

So this weekend was somewhat of a tough one. I work this weekend and all though I made so good money I was so tired and sick. On Saturday I pickup so freight from this company and like two hours later they called and said they gave me the wrong stuff. Poop on them... so I had to drive back and get the right stuff.
Yesterday I slept so much. I took a nap plus I went to sleep earlier. It felt good but now my nose is a little stuffy so go figure I'm sick... well I know tomorrow it will be worst.
I have been a little consider about I few things in my life my mother and my brother mostly. I feel useless when I can't help them or do anything to make them feel better. All I can do is call! And I'm not good on the call. I don't listen when the conversation gets long... I guess I lose interest.
I have been listening to a lot of Joseph Arthur lately I want to share a song with you all: Ashes EveryWhere

I'll be silent in my solitude
Can't find my smile or my gratitude
I'm afraid of what I might do
'Cause there's no me
If there's no me and you
I wish that i could open up your eyes
To feel the sun that burned in your mind

I can't deal with what you have done
Reincarnate i wonder who i might become
With the potential of a loaded gun
I could be as fresh as hard bubble gum
I don't have nothing, now I want me some
First some of you, then some of everyone

Oh darling since you've been away from me
I know how the pins feel in the bowling alley
They say love is something you feel but never see
When I see you I firmly disagree
I'm just trying to be all that I can be
Without destroying you
Or joining the army

Your ashes must be blowing everywhere
'Cause i could still feel you and you're nowhere near
And though you didn't say so i can tell that you still care
We could've had it all but then nothing is fair
I still think about washing your hair
I wish i could've washed away all of your despair