All my damn pictures look grainy and they piss me off. I will no longer post pictures until they don't look grainy. I'm sure it's my computer, but all it does is make me scream. Well, metaphorically scream. So now I'm venting about it in my journal.
But now that I'm done.
I went on a minidate tonight with someone from work. Its very secret for work because the owner is INSANELY against fraternization, and he is also the landlord for both of our apartments. He snuck out of his apartment and I snuck out of mine and picked him up and we drove around for hours, talking... Talking about everything and anything. I'm glad he's a lot more interesting than I thought he was, because that would have been the number one deal breaker. He was really shy about telling me that he likes me, so by the end of the night, I thought we were just going to be friends until he blurbed out that he likes me and that I make him nervous, etc, etc.Then he kissed me and went to get out of the car. Then I grabbed him and kissed him and I'm pretty sure I felt him melt inside. That's all I wanted the whole time... The melt. I'm still unsure of whether this is something I want to pursue, but I'm giving it a shot because he's so different than anyone I know on the earth. I'm skeptical, but interested.
The worst part is that I'm crushing on one of my friends so hard, I have been for a long time, and I'm fairly sure it will never in life go anywhere, but I can't stop thinking about this person. Not for one second. I thought about this person all night, and I felt as if my feelings were cheating. Weird.
Ok, I'm posting pictures anyway because I'm retarded.
But now that I'm done.
I went on a minidate tonight with someone from work. Its very secret for work because the owner is INSANELY against fraternization, and he is also the landlord for both of our apartments. He snuck out of his apartment and I snuck out of mine and picked him up and we drove around for hours, talking... Talking about everything and anything. I'm glad he's a lot more interesting than I thought he was, because that would have been the number one deal breaker. He was really shy about telling me that he likes me, so by the end of the night, I thought we were just going to be friends until he blurbed out that he likes me and that I make him nervous, etc, etc.Then he kissed me and went to get out of the car. Then I grabbed him and kissed him and I'm pretty sure I felt him melt inside. That's all I wanted the whole time... The melt. I'm still unsure of whether this is something I want to pursue, but I'm giving it a shot because he's so different than anyone I know on the earth. I'm skeptical, but interested.
The worst part is that I'm crushing on one of my friends so hard, I have been for a long time, and I'm fairly sure it will never in life go anywhere, but I can't stop thinking about this person. Not for one second. I thought about this person all night, and I felt as if my feelings were cheating. Weird.
Ok, I'm posting pictures anyway because I'm retarded.
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thanks for the note. I'm feeling ok. I mean, it'd gotten to the point where I was SO over the BS. I feel bad it went down how it did and he had to get hurt. but maybe he shouldn't hacked into my accounts and read my personal messages to my friend about what was bothering me.
No I've not seen that. good?
-TM