this room with a computer is called "le business room"... i am up to some exceedingly questionable le business...
home is impossible- i've the house to myself all day and all night..just the dog, the cat and i. quiet, lonely i find myself re-examining the value of everything from objects to interests & i find i don't even have the same interests that i had last week... so much has dissolved...! i have literally dissolved. i look different, i am 8 pounds lighter and slightly discolored i have to get to know this person & i'm just not in the mood for it.
i don't know where my faith has been. i know this time is different and that faith just hangs where it is & causes physical pain... unable to do the thing it needs to do... i can't bear optimism, i can't eat or concentrate on mixed drinks...
I'm leaving on sunday...i hate early flights. My cat just fucking sneezed on me
time for more broth. broth is a terrible word
home is impossible- i've the house to myself all day and all night..just the dog, the cat and i. quiet, lonely i find myself re-examining the value of everything from objects to interests & i find i don't even have the same interests that i had last week... so much has dissolved...! i have literally dissolved. i look different, i am 8 pounds lighter and slightly discolored i have to get to know this person & i'm just not in the mood for it.
i don't know where my faith has been. i know this time is different and that faith just hangs where it is & causes physical pain... unable to do the thing it needs to do... i can't bear optimism, i can't eat or concentrate on mixed drinks...
I'm leaving on sunday...i hate early flights. My cat just fucking sneezed on me
time for more broth. broth is a terrible word