since i deleted all of my other journals..i just really need to do this
Sweetness, I'm sorry I couldn't think of anything to say when I saw you. Baby I love you. You are without a doubt the most beautiful person I've ever met. I love having you in my life. I think about you non stop. Jayson, you were always my favorite. You know, the last time i was in the city there was a trumpeter outside Penn station playing somewhere over the rainbow. I thought of you. I know how you love Judy Garland! It really hurt to hear it and not have you with me. We would've belted out the words and made a huge scene. It started pouring the second i left the hospital last night. Sappy old me wouldn't pass up the opportunity to just start sobbing in the rain. Dani and I talked about you all last night. Most of favorite memories are with you. I don't want you to be in pain anymore. People like you should never feel pain. I was always so happy to go anywhere with you, you made anything fun. You always said I was beautiful...or hot
It means so much that you're proud to be my friend. I'm crying like a baby, i just want to be with you. I want you to get better, i want to do all the things we planned. No more next-times, no more some-day. I'm glad we got to see the fireworks together. I'm glad my first pride march was with you. I'm so happy you were with me for some of the best times I've ever had.
I remember when we first met, you thought i was a violent psychotic drunk dyke and I thought you were the strangest person I'd ever met as you chased me down the street in heels, hot pants and a negligee. I'm happy Dani introduced us that night despite our bad impressions. I think we more than made up for it. She loves you. A lot of people love you. This is so hard. I'm sure I didn't have to tell you that. You're always beautiful. You could never do wrong in my eyes. I hope you never doubted how much i love you. I think it's going to rain tonight, if it does i'll be there standing there, singing somewhere over the rainbow and thinking about you. I have so much i want to say, but i can't do this right now. I'l be missing you, babe.
Sweetness, I'm sorry I couldn't think of anything to say when I saw you. Baby I love you. You are without a doubt the most beautiful person I've ever met. I love having you in my life. I think about you non stop. Jayson, you were always my favorite. You know, the last time i was in the city there was a trumpeter outside Penn station playing somewhere over the rainbow. I thought of you. I know how you love Judy Garland! It really hurt to hear it and not have you with me. We would've belted out the words and made a huge scene. It started pouring the second i left the hospital last night. Sappy old me wouldn't pass up the opportunity to just start sobbing in the rain. Dani and I talked about you all last night. Most of favorite memories are with you. I don't want you to be in pain anymore. People like you should never feel pain. I was always so happy to go anywhere with you, you made anything fun. You always said I was beautiful...or hot
It means so much that you're proud to be my friend. I'm crying like a baby, i just want to be with you. I want you to get better, i want to do all the things we planned. No more next-times, no more some-day. I'm glad we got to see the fireworks together. I'm glad my first pride march was with you. I'm so happy you were with me for some of the best times I've ever had. I remember when we first met, you thought i was a violent psychotic drunk dyke and I thought you were the strangest person I'd ever met as you chased me down the street in heels, hot pants and a negligee. I'm happy Dani introduced us that night despite our bad impressions. I think we more than made up for it. She loves you. A lot of people love you. This is so hard. I'm sure I didn't have to tell you that. You're always beautiful. You could never do wrong in my eyes. I hope you never doubted how much i love you. I think it's going to rain tonight, if it does i'll be there standing there, singing somewhere over the rainbow and thinking about you. I have so much i want to say, but i can't do this right now. I'l be missing you, babe.
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