I blocked my ex a while back on FB so even if I caved and searched her up I wouldn't see anything, and that would remind me not to dig up the past.
I underestimated my own weakness (common for me) and today I searched up her current boyfriend. They're still together. I hate that. I told myself she was rushing into something because she's needy and it was going to crash and burn, but it isn't. They're happy and having fun, and here's me.
I'm having fun too, kinda. I should be happy but I'm not. And I keep feeling this urge to rush a relationship, like every day she is in one and I'm not, she's winning.
Idk there's no point to this blog. Just whining. Idk why I feel like I can confide here and not like on social media where my friends and family are, but it is what it is. Hope everyone else is having an awesome week.
