inara

So work has been pretty hectic. Just when things seemed to be going so well, I had to have a night that was just completely out of control and scary. Last Thursday night there were 4 fights, I had to call the police's non-emergency number twice, and 911 once. Some gang banger threatened to shoot me, threw a glass and a full pitcher of beer at me, and tried to get across the bar to me. No one was there to help protect me or get the guy out. It was awful. After that I pretty much had a melt down from all the bullshit I'd had to handle all night long. From now on I'll be prepared though. I have a .22 I'm keeping behind the bar with me, and I will not be afraid to use it if those same fucks show up looking for trouble again.

The worst part is that after all that drama I really want to just quit that job. It's so not worth getting hurt or killed, but I'm not in a position to be looking for work right now. I just bought a new car, and I still need about $1000 for my move-in at the new place by October 1st. So quitting right now is not an option. I just feel totally trapped at that shit hole. Until I put a safe distance between myself and last week's incident, every time I walk into that place I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

I had the gang bangers arrested, but I'm sure they were just let out the next day even more pissed off at me. Before the cops took them away he kept saying how fucked I was, and how he knows where I work and he'll be back. Fortunately (or rather unfortunately, depending on how you look at it) next time I'll be a little more prepared. I just hope there is no next time. I really don't want to shoot anybody.