Sunday Jun 26, 2005

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The only thing I remember about yesterday, is the obnoxious 12 inch, 200 dollar blunt.


Oh, oh! The boomerang and bed vibrator as well!

All in all it was a pretty good day.

Sunday Jun 19, 2005

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"...and I think to myself, what a wonderful world."


It's morning for me at 10:35p on a Sunday night.

I was woken up by my sometimes insane father flicking the light on, poking my leg and saying "DO YOU WANT A HAMBURGER?!?!?"

NO! SLEEPING PEOPLE DON'T WANT HAMBURGERS!!!

Maybe that's just how he checks if I'm still alive when I've been in bed all day,...
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beatnik:
i hear ya. I hope you get well soon.

sometimes, ive found, you can't help but be in limbo sometimes. it's these strange transitionary stages that can be both terrifying and peaceful. but if you're anything like me, you become completely overcome with the sensation that you're out of control of your life. don't let it get to you - change will come.... it's the calm before the storm.

I've moved in with the folks for the next month or 2, I've only been here for about 3 weeks now....hopefully I'll be getting lost soon... but I've never felt so helpless in my life.

stick it though, and remember to appreciate and enjoy everything. that's what it's all about.

SG-MKE.... soon! biggrin

beatnik: up up and away!
surreal
need2xcap2:
one of my favorite things in life is when everything around looks or feels like shit but for some reason or another you are just in the best mood ever....i love good moods, they make all the grey shit in the world look less grey...

feel better dear!

kiss

Friday Jun 17, 2005

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7am......Wow.......I'm awake, and I did 10 pull-ups.......
I seem to recall something mentioned at bowling last night about midday hangovers....eh, I'll just go back to bed if that happens.

Had a great time bowling and drinking and lounging about the um....Vox? Yeah I'm pretty sure that was it. Any bar with moderately cmfortable couches is okay in my book. Even if they allow Coldplay on...
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beatnik:
Had an awesome time for sure last night. I definately hope we can all hook up again sometime..... soon!

I wish i had more fun dreams..... all of my dreams either tend towards the completely incomprehensible or the absurdly boring. But more than anything, I wish i could just know I'm dreaming when I dream, so I can do insane and awesome stuff. I actually read that the same chemicals are released in your brain when you sleep as those when you take LSD.... so dreams are actually LSD trips while you sleep. surreal

I completely agree with your sentiments about the frailty of life. It takes a long time and a mature mind to appreciate everything in life - pain and joy alike. And I live for it... all of it... pain and joy. Its what makes it all worth while. Yin and Yang,

Be well.
surreal
dingoes8:
7 AM, my god. eeek

I've had some wild dreams in my time. I appreciate them, even the bad ones. They're more interesting than my real life, usually. wink

Anyways, good to meet you, hopefully we'll do something again soonish.

Thursday Jun 16, 2005

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I barely escaped the same old nightmares this morning as I woke up, again. Normally I lay still for a while after I wake up to try and shake off the terrible feeling I'm left with, but not this morning. This morning it was spitting up blood and migraine headaches, I'm not sure why, but I have my guesses. Hopefully I was merely bit by...
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beatnik:
sweet night dude!
surreal

Tuesday Jun 14, 2005

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Spent a few days doing landscaping for my eldest sister in West Bend, it's a whole other world out there I think. People are less timid and fearful than where I live. Or maybe it's just that being away from home for a bit kinda 'woke me up' Either way it was nice, I got paid probably more than I deserved (which doesn't bother me...
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in_decission:
Yet 'somehow' the war gets waaaay less media coverage......
wardy:
insightful! i'll have to remember those next time i find myself in the given situation.

Sunday Jun 12, 2005

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One thousand words
Even more misgivings
All the excuses
For the lives we're living
Never adding up to the sum of their parts
Pressing on like this, never getting too far
The wasted efforts denied
Second chances lost inside
The mix of hate and nothing
Fool ourselves into something
Pure and whole
If only in our minds
Losing control
A step behind

If I had...
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Sunday Jun 05, 2005

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Sometimes it still feels like everythings alright smile

Tuesday May 31, 2005

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So I've been sitting here for an hour or so, probably more, knowing me, trying to decide if now is the time to quit smoking, or to walk 5 or 6 blocks and buy another pack. It's so trivial it makes me want to puke, or maybe that's just the alcohol. I've been to the bars with so many different people now, most of them...
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Saturday May 28, 2005

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First there was this feeling
Followed by some chords
That came out from my basement
From a night spent getting bored
And I tried to explain it
Attempted to find the words
But it all came out not worth shit
Sounded so absurd
It just kept piling up
One day to the next
It just kept piling up
Until there was nothing left
You can...
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Tuesday May 24, 2005

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"...but it's better than drinking alone."

I turned 21 yesterday. Good for me.

After waking up at about 4 in the afternoon, I managed to force myself out to dinner with my parents and my Gramps. I don't usually do things just because other people want me too, but my dad seemed pretty excited about it. Damn, I can't stand that guy. My parents are...
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