in_decission

First there was this feeling
Followed by some chords
That came out from my basement
From a night spent getting bored
And I tried to explain it
Attempted to find the words
But it all came out not worth shit
Sounded so absurd
It just kept piling up
One day to the next
It just kept piling up
Until there was nothing left
You can try to pin it down
Until it requires no thinking
The silence gets so loud
In between all the drinking
You know this doesn't feel
Like who I used to be
I can only pray that person
Has become a memory
But hope has let me down
So many times before
Yet every time I've found
I go running back for more
It seems like all this pain
Is searching for something else
And after all I've been through
I've only found myself